Hello

@littlemix must be even harder if you both gambled? Easier in a way as you had nothing to hide but harder to stop x

Your both amazing, so positive and supportive and both have amazing partners x x 

@cpparch yes and no because he wouldn't play he'd put it on his device that's what's got us into this mess in the first place I'm so mad at him he gave me the temptation in the first place because we were winning for weeks on end I guess greed got the better of us we got used to the extra cash of treating ourselves n I wasn't strong enough to say no thanku we are still arguing at this point I feel like he's let me down like he's dangled the carrot infront of me the arguments are the guilt on both sides me for playing the game in the first place and he's for putting it on..

So I gave him the ultimatum he had to.go.on gamstop because that way he can never do this again I.do take 50% of the blame because I played at first he said no to gamstop he said he hadn't got the problem I had but I can't keep.taking it all on my shoulders I want to move on with my life and not be in this situation again a few harsh words lastnight and we both on it and he went on for 5years because in 5years time I want to.look back and say we did this we beat it don't get me wrong I'm a nervousvwreck at the minute I'm very up and down moodwise but it's the best outcome for both of us I kept saying no.more but then getting anxious about never playing the game again life without the game made me anxious because its been there for the past 12months and I'd go into.panic mode but we and I can't ho on like this we have separate bank accounts so.id send him.the money to.play it wasn't him being out of pocket it was me and when we'd win I'd give him half he both admitted we are ruining each other and our marriage if we carried on.

It's definitely the shove we both needed because I won't play another game like it no other game interests me and its only on UK sites so I know it's definitely game over I can't ask he can't put it on I guess this is my 3rd stepping stone of being gamble free no access and I.guess to.me it was the biggest one because I came on gamstop last year admitted I had a problem.but I still played this way I can't do any of that now this is the only way we can get our lives back in the respect that it truly is game over for the game and I start rebuilding my life my marriage and finding me I guess x

aww Claire I'm proud of you both, you are obviously very strong and in a great relationship. I don't think I could do that, my husband hates gambling never gambled in his life so I feel for me I would be letting him down. I must admit I feel much stronger today after speaking to everyone last night, you have helped me massively and I can't thank you enough for that x x 

@xbluebearx any time I've just come off the phone to.the drs and he's helping me I guess it's time to sort this out once n for all x

@littlemix proud of you, I'm here anytime you need a chat x x 

@xbluebearx thanku u too xx

@xbluebearx how are you feeling today? 

My husband is the same, never gambled in his life, not even bought a lottery ticket. I felt exactly the same as you - how could I even begin to tell me what I had done?! But I had no choice, a huge pile of bank statements came through and he saw all the payments. I was backed in to a corner and there was no way out. But even at that point, he still didn’t suspect gambling. 

You might be really surprised with his reaction, I certainly was. You haven’t chosen this life, it sucked you in and controlled you. 

Claire x