Hello new ,ashamed and frightened

Hi Annie lane

Don't feel like you shouldn't be here as gambling most or all your wages is still the same problem as most of us whether it be 300 or 3000. It's all relative and if it means you have spent all of your money then it's exactly the same. Have you tried k9? I used that previously on my Samsung tablet.

Or alternatively maybe order a new card and have someone scratch off the last three digits then you can't gamble online even if you wanted.

I think being able to access gambling online is disasterous as the money element doesn't feel real until reality kicks in. I have the same problem yet I could have 500 pound in my purse and it will stay there.

Also what do you tell them when you self exclude as I say I am a CG and when I did try to remember open an account they wouldn't do it so maybe tell them the full extent when self excluding as a company should act responsibly and not really open your account if you tell them you have a serious problem.

Good luck on your journey.

Bex

This is day 1 for me , it's taken me 8 years to come and do a diary I hope this helps some of the diaries are helpful

Hi Annielane

Like anon 1982 has said it doesn't matter if it's 300 or 3000 it's still does a lot of damage to the individual, I was a little stakes gambler but did this very often as the compulsiveness was there ! You have come to the right place here and even GA meetings if there are any near you I would recommend you try and attend one as they work for me.

From my experiences I would come clean to you husband, as I never to my wife any of the 3 times she has caught me out and now she has had enough of the lies and deceit and has said it's finished between us two as to which I am devastated, he might be very angry with you at first but it will get better in the end I'm sure.

All the Best

Darren

HI Annie Lane. You sound exactly the same as me . I am new here too and I am the same with online slots but I am at the point now where I am crying inside as I don't want to do it anymore but I somehow keep getting drawn to slots as I keep thinking one more win and I'll stop but I end up losing again. I know I am chasing lost money and if I didn't gamble it I would win in the end by overcoming this gambling and saving money , but as I say logic goes out of the window when temptation gets hold. I really don't know where to turn .

Bless you all thank you , I did tell my husband about it but not to the full extent , he watches me but I still lie and say I'm on candy crush !!! Bless him he trusts me have been married 34 years , but it's me who is living with the guilt , if I'm stressed I turn straight to slots only online , I woke realising another 300 plus has been spent since Christmas it's a lot I even take time out on sites then stay up all night until they let me on at midnight ,it is definitely a block I need as have samsung tablet and phone I tried k9 but it wasn't compatible, my heart goes out to you Kind people who have answered I felt a freak , but you have listened thank you xx I feel for you all as gambling is an addiction and is everywhere you turn , you are all so very brave by been here I hope I can help someone too x

Ashamed,embarrassed,guilty,betrayed,scary,worthless just some of the words that we all feel it's will feel like that for a while but not forever providing we all take positive steps firstly for ourselves then the cloud will clear and the words can be encouraging rather than negative hopefully along with practical measures best suited to each individual can make it all worthwhile but takes patience and perseverance.

Hi Annielane,

Well done for your post, and thanks also for sharing your story.

It seems like you’ve been struggling to cope with your gambling urges for a while but, it doesn’t seem to be going away.

I realise a couple of forum users have also offered their support and given advice from their experiences.

It’s worth taking all these information into account, examine them carefully, and apply all those strategies from those you can identify with.

You seemed to manage little breaks and then you go back to gambling again. I suggest that you try and reflect on circumstances that enabled you to abstain for about four days, and also think about the reason that made you go back after abstaining for those few days.

Did you abstain because you were busy and couldn’t find time to gamble or, did you resume your gambling because you’re bored and have too much time on your hands or, are you trying to escape from some situation?

Your answers may help you to expand on your achievement, and find a way forward.

Please bear in mind that Gamcare is ready to support you every step of the way if you apply the advice that we offer you on strategies.

We can also refer you to 12 sessions of free counselling if that would help you eventually to give up gambling.

I suggest that you contact our free phone Helpline on: 0808 8020 133, and have a 1 to 1 chat with one of our advisers. Our lines are open every day from 8.00am to midnight.

Meanwhile, continue to read the post from our forum for more strategies to help you overcome your gambling problem.

Thanks once again for your post, and please keep posting.

Best wishes,

Beatrice

Nearly one year ago I came here to try and stop gambling, and it hasn’t happened I’m about to hit 30 gambled all through my 20s and determined to get rid of this addiction for once and for all just fed up of doing it just don’t know why I do it constant losing money that will stop hopefully

Hi, if you really want to stop then do what i did, get an old nokia phone that only makes calls & texts, no internet. No offence but your playing with peanuts and it will progress, before you know it you're applying for bank loans and credit cards, it loves people like you. Online slots will take your house, your job, your partner, your kids and sometimes your life. The chances of you winning life changing sums is next to zero. The odd bonus game can feel like an orgasm, but sometimes even they can make you angry by paying out peanuts, it's all to get you angry and hooked. Learn from me, i've won tens of thousands and lost a hell of a lot more. I've now got more money in the bank from saving than my biggest win gambling and it feels better cos i worked for it. Your dreams will not be made via online gambling, plenty of nightmares though, your brain is lying to you. Get another phone, fill your time with positive things and forget online gambling, it's for mugs.