help me please

Hi All,
I am from India. I came to uk in 2006.
I always used to think gambling is very bad and it is prohibited in India. However, when I left my Indian tech company, I joined a company in UK, In July 2011.
Nevertheless, I did not had much work. I had only 2 to 3 hours of work per day and I used to use the time for swim, jog etc. My office location was in Regents Park.
Before that I was start in my project and around 100's of Indian colleagues used to be working with me. So I often used to have lunch, dinner together. Spend time in watching movies, playing & watching sports etc
I used love sports like tennis and football. I used to watch match of the day and football championship. In addition, I used to love predicting the game result in BBC
Suddenly I did not had not much colleagues also no friends of my age and similar interest.
So I seriously started looking jobs, gave couple of interviews for investment bankss, betting companies like Bet fair etc. Somehow I could not crack the fiunal interview, may be because of my poor communication skill.
After 3 months in my company really frustrated with the lack of work. Want to get into day contracts or some very good companies where I could display my skill.

Meanwhile during one party around sep/Oct 2011, my manager was talking to other colleague who was leaving our company regarding the betting while watching the match in the pub. The colleague was placing some bets on his mobile.
My manager asked me do you bet. I told no.
Next day during lunchtime, i went to l*******s office near Baker Street and placed my bet. Initially embarrassed. I placed 50pence bet on accumulator.
I felt it was fun.
After a month I was just placing less than 2pound bet. I used to win 10 -30GBP.

Then I created the online account and could do the betting from office as I had lot of free time.
Since these websites stream matches, especially tennis ( All ATP, WTA ,challenger games) I used to enjoy the games after everyone leaving and I used to stay in the office till 8pm.
Slowly I started to place on points . Initially 1 -10 gbp.
It used to be fun.
Somehow, end of the year I used to enjoy my betting and the profits. In addition, I stopped applying for jobs.

I went to India for bride search at the end of the year Dec 2011 and came back to UK Jan 2012.
After I re-joined I got a new IPad from office for testing developed applications in IPad.
My habit was increased because I could do bet now during my travel to work. However, I somehow in January I won in tennis betting. I used to bet now using b****5.

i did not withdraw this bet, rather kept in my account for long time . One crazy day I placed a large sum in point betting and lost that money.
Same day I lost all of my winnings.
Later I failed in my Driving test.
So I was total became crazy and started betting on the Friday night on tennis point bet and football matches and lost a lot of my money. However, it was as if I was losing all my money in current account and started withdraw money from my saving account, around 5k.
End of March 2012, I lost another large sum.
I went to India and got engaged to wonderful woman. However, I hide my habit of gambling to her.

Because Iwant to recover my loss and then stop gambling.
I continued gambling and end of December I lost around 35K and I had very less money in my saving account.

After marriage in Jan 2013, I improved my situation and started saving some fixed amount to my saving account. Still used to gamble remaining of my salary near around used to pay 2k per month.
I finally switched my company where I used to get 1.5k better of my previous company.
I had a more privacy in the office where I could bet freely there. I stopped betting from home used to do only from office.
Gradually over the years till April 2018 , I accumulated betting loss of almost 100 K (in 6.5 years) I had accounts in almost many popular sports betting sites.
I did not improve my technical skills, my wife was not very happy as I was not spending time with my wife.

I always make sure that my wife was not aware of my financial situation. Always used to say all is well . Also I used to give her around 1K of money every month. I always used that money for any emergency, also some time for funding my betting. She was happy with her life and her friends.

Finally, one great day, I [GP1] won a large amount and could recover my losses.
This changed me overall.

Luckily, it was much needed for me because I had to do visa extension and India trip. If I did not win, i would have asked from my wife's account where she would have got doubt.
However, I was greedy and still lost around 17K until October 2018. In addition, I had one big winning in the beginning of the month.
I also applied for mortgage to buy a house.
My mortgage adviser did not ask any question in the first meeting as he thought my deposit amount was because of my salary saving.
Just before finalising the approval button on October 24th, he asked me a question where is the big amount coming from. Then I told him about the betting.
Then he told he could not lend me loan. He feel risky. Because even after the deposit I was left with some money in account. He was thinking I might lose the same.

Finally, I opened up about this habit with my wife, she was upset but she forgive me my mistake.
Later I registered GAMSTOP, and approached the mortgage adviser regarding my action to stop gambling.
He was happy and he mentioned after one month he would review my application.

However, during last 3 weeks I was so happy that I felt I am regaining my life back.

I lost too much in last 7 years (money, friends, family time, my technical knowledge, almost everything). Many days I was depressed, feeling suicidal. Not at all happy, also used to feel that I am cheating my family.

Even if I was with friends, family or if I go any holiday, inside I used to suffer a lot..
So happy to get my life back.

. I have registered for GAMSTOP, 3 weeks back. It took 3 weeks to register my account. During that period, I bet around 200GBP. Also around 50GBPon shops.
Still I feel better, because earlier I used to gamble 2500 - 3000 GBP per month.

A good thing is I cannot bet on online now.

I am just waiting for my loan approval and looking forward leading a new life in new house.
Never do betting. It just kills you and kills people around you…

Thanks for reading my story.