Hi everyone....this is my first post and the first time I've admitted I have a gambling problem. It started off just the odd scratch card, then I won £5000, I then discovered online slots. I won another £2000 on sLots a week later. I don't know what it is about them, I don't know if it's the constant bonuses, emails and texts that lure me in I just know it feels impossible to stop. I'm going to lose everything very soon and I'm scared. I have bipolar which makes all this a lot harder to control. I select my last two months rent on gambling and I'm no threatened with eviction. I have 2 children and I can't even stop for them. I get up every morning and the first thing I think about is gambling. I've just kicked one addiction, I'm now 2 weeks in, I just need to find the strength to kick this addiction. Feeling so down at the moment and in need of some support. The only other person who knows is my psychiatrist but there's not a lot he can do until I decide to do something. I've even got my partner in debt through my gambling but he has no idea of the extent...its all going to come to a head within the next 2 weeks and I'm scared I'm going to lose him.
Hi linz
Welcome to the forum..and well done on facing up to your addiction hun. ...
Id advise you to ring the helpline for a chat....they will help you .....I did...best call I made last year...good luck....and keep posting on here
Morning Linz
Your not alone sweety , we all have issues and this forum is full of stories of gambling heart ache in different forms but from nice normal big hearted boys and girls of all ages and wakes of life , i do feel for you controlling or stopping gambling is hard enough but mixed with a medical conditions must make it really hard , i lost thousands last year and my rent payments twice and i know the anxiety you feel its unbearable , hurts so much , and i feel from your post you not got enough support in blocking gambling , you need to be brutally honest with ur bf says its consuming you , you just cant stop until you lose it all and that u need him to take full control of finances , if u got kids u can,t go into the bookies so must be all online so order a new card and when comes get someone to scratch off the last 3 be useless online then , then to make sure u can get ur bf to install k9 on any computers , laptops , mobile , its a blocker device that will make it impossible to enter the sites and that will hopefully show how serious you are to stop and then there is no way to gamble when the urge comes
in respect to rent you have to try get a loan or agree higher rent with your landlord talk to them now tho , u can,t get your money back to pay it , its disguisting really a lady with 2 kids and issues being drained and possible evicted while the money u need is making no difference the big fat cat operators just a few more 000,s on profit line but to you its everythink
hope they all burn in hell , as thats where gambling should be and there expoiting human weakness
joe
Hi Linz
When I was reading your post I could put myself totally in your shoes. I also have two children and I cant understand why I couldnt stop for them. Looking back on my own experience I would say that I should of told my wife the true extent of the debts as soon as possible. Everytime another letter came to the house she began to lose more trust in what I was saying. Hindsight is wonderful but I firmly believe that had she known everything we could of had found a way forward. If you can be brave and take a very difficult step.
Good luck
Howard.
Hi,
How are you doing today?
Hi Linz sadly wen we gamble the last thing is that we think of our loved ones it creates selfish behaviour in us the more we do it it hard to stop but now you seemed to realise the repercussions and consequences but fear not help is our there and reading the posts here can guide you to recovery but you need to be 100% committed and take on board every bit of advice and help you can get don't let it fester and it starts with you then every one else.Yes it's going to be emotionally hard work especially with your illness but don't let it stop you for the sake of you and your children because they are innocent in all of this.Contact Gamcare,speak to your doctor try to read these posts it's raw at the moment but long as you take the steps it can get better.good luck
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