Hi all new to this, hoping to start clean today

Hi Rick

Sorry to hear you've had a hard week. I need to start fresh today too. Have you stopped before now?

Hi lizzy

I had stopped about 9 months ago. It lasted 2 months, I swore I wouldn't ever gamble again. It bought me to do much shame, I was placing high stakes on football match £500 a hit, when they did land at a 4/1 I was happy 2k up but I just couldn't stop. I would then chase what I won with losing deep in my own pocket. I have had a major slip and I'm sick of the sneaking about and hiding. My behaviour has and mood has changed, irritable, anxious and sick. I have self excluded but I still think about it...even when I've hit rock bottom, why would I want to be back there. I started again today, and want to try put it behind me and have more focus on life. I have lost so much interest in things where I have let this addiction control me. How about you?

Its the worse feeling isn't it? I've been crying in such a mess and can literally feel the stress in every cell in my body. But what I do know is that even a few days not gambling I feel more calm and back to normal.

I have a fiancГ©e and 3 beautiful boys. I need to choose life rather than following the bad demon on this addictive path of compulsive gambling

Hi Rick,
Self-exclude yourself mate. I am one week free. Trying to forget my loss. Its not easy to forget but it is easier than to lose more. Busy yourself with your boys in a tug of war whenever you get an urge or something.

It's amazing to have people close who care about you.

I agree, it's so hard to forget the losses. That's what draws me back every time. I just think... I could easily just gamble enough to repay my debts etc then just quit and start a fresh. But then I try it, sometimes I do win enough. But then I gamble it again, and then some! And do it goes round and round, down and down.

Hi Lizzy/Rick you’ll never win because your compulsive gamblers and no matter up or down we still carry on and can’t stop. Put plenty of blocks in place so when you feel the urge you can’t gamble, self exclude, put blockers on your device/s and there’s more stuff you can do. Wishing you all the best x

Lizzy is true

Hi Lizzy,

there is no rock bottom and we will sink deeper if you keep going.

My 17k (20k really) kills me everyday remembering them. Today is my payday and I m trying my best to not ruin it. you can get your losses by saving. Don't gamble...it's not worth the mental torture