I have to stop now.....again

Day 11 and feeling good, even with a hangover. Nothing better that watching the news saying that the maximum stake for FOBT will now reduce from £100 to £2....best news ever and about time. Hate Roulette with a passion, and I hope this will apply to online roulette also as this is what gets most people in trouble as it doesn’t feel like real money.

I’m really struggling today, my mind is urging me to gamble and i’m Fighting it the best that I can. If it wasn’t for the debts I wouldn’t be tempted but the thought of this long hard slog to be debt free is eating me up. I know that if I buckle and gamble it will put me back to square one but this is not easy. How did I get myself in this situation? On the outside i’m Happy as if I haven’t got a care in the world, but really I am so ashamed of what an idiot i’ve Been.

Managed to resist the urges and am now home from work. With GamStop in place I now feel comfortable that another day will pass gamble free. Happy days.

Another day down GF, things seem to be getting easier however I know that the battle has only just started.

2 weeks GF.

Well done mate. Two weeks is a good achievement.

Thanks Martin67, feeling pretty proud actually and so much more happier than when I was gambling. Early days however hopefully I can continue and never Gamble again....as we all know it ruins our lives as well as our families. Good luck in your journey also.

Another day down GF, feels like it’s getting easier and no real urges to gamble. Payday tomorrow but i’ve Still got money left in my account which is a first.

Payday today and not one thought about gambling. Maybe i’ve Finally turned the corner and realised that a life without gambling is a happy life.

Day 18 today GF, still feeling positive and trying to keep the thoughts of the gambling debt at the back of my mind. How long can I withstand those thoughts is the question?

Day 20 today GF. In a ratty mood and I think it’s because of the betting withdrawal symptoms. There’s no other reason for it. Anyway i’m Still not tempted to put a bet on so here’s to another weekend free of this horrible addiction.

Day 21 = 3 weeks. Progress at least. My mind is gradually not thinking about gambling which is good, however the gambling debts are still at the forefront of my mind. That will only get better after years so the challenge is to withstand the thoughts of gambling to win the money back to pay off the debts. Those thoughts will always be there. Anyway another day down but I know the battle has only just begun.

Another day, another struggle. My mood is relatively low and I am ratty some days and perfectly happy on others. Hopefully as the days add up my moods will lighten. I still think they are connected to the gambling. Maybe it’s the debts or maybe it’s the void that gambling has left...when I say that I mean the entertainment and excitement that it brings, not the massive lows when more money has been chucked down the drain. I know that this is the right thing to do, and I will stay strong.

Hello G100

Well done on what you've done so far. I was very up and down mood wise for a few months. Its a total life change. Your body and mind has SO much to process. Gambling blocks so much of life out but now you are starting to face it. Soon you will be embracing the positive effects, just ride it out. It does get SO much better if you just keep making that choice to not gamble each day.

All the best.

Thanks SJW, I hope that you are right as the mood swings are causing some problems with my wife and I find it difficult to explain as it doesn’t even sound normal to me when i’m Saying it. I don’t think I can expect anyone to really understand unless that have been through the same illness and battle. I don’t want to gamble but that doesn’t mean that the thoughts aren’t constantly there. I think I need to focus on the future and not the debt because that is the major factor in my moods/depression. 24 days GF.