167 days GF. Another week passes with no thoughts of going back to my life of despair. Looking forward not back.
173 days GF, but all of a sudden those urges have returned. All afternoon my mind is telling me that one little bet will be ok. It will pass the time this afternoon as it’s boring at work. Really close to folding and putting a goal bet on to pass the time. Can I go back to only betting sensibly? Doubt it, so will try my best to fight this. Anyone else face these challenges out of nowhere?
First of all, massive congratulations on making it so far along your journey. In answer to your question, no, absolutely not mate. That's how it starts and you'll guaranteed end up in a worse situation than before. re-read your first posts along the diary and try and remember how you were feeling, you don't wanna go through all that again surely? Stay strong bud
Gambled today, absolutely disgusted with myself. Not sure where to go from here.
Ok g100.I have same prob .relapsing. so I downloaded the daybook diary/journal of play store.i add a comment everyday. Like today I am sorry to my family and I have t them down bcos of my selfish ways .I done my money on Thursday. So now I write all this down. And say I will not do it tommorow.you can add sa picture to message.i put my granddaughter on today .I will do another one tommorow.hope this helps .every little bit helps.
Ok so today is a fresh start. Gutted about what I did yesterday but whats done is done. £40 in roulette and 10 goal bet. £50 lost. Didn’t enjoy doing it and made me feel really guilt for my family so hopefully won’t be going back again. 10 Stella’s probably didn’t help my decision making. Thanks Lando92 and Sparky56 for your comments. I do appreciate the support and I suppose this journey was never going to be plain sailing. Good luck with your battle also, I wish you well.
Keep going mate.
Read a few threads like this on this site from when I posted way back in 2004, Not been back on here since then. I am wondering out of all the problem gamblers that decide enoughs enough and quit how many actually suceed compared to how many succomb to the evil addiction. I would imagine the winners who beat this disease are a small percentage in comparison to the ones who struggle with it.
I think it is part of the journey that each of us have to face. Some may find it relatively easy compared to others but i’m Sure the percentage of relapse is higher than not. I think the key is to try and learn each time if you do relapse on what may have triggered it and start again. Day 4 GF and i’m Starting my GF life again. Yes I relapsed but it May have actually been a positive thing as I was so upset that I let myself do it that it has given me the determination to not go back there again. The roulette was standard, £40 gone in 2 mins and the goal bet I put on came close but the whole experience was not enjoyable so wanted it to lose before the games even kicked off. Onwards and upwards from now on.
Day 7 GF, one week since I let my guard down. Never again.
Unlucky for some but not for me at the moment. 13 days GF. No urges.
Hi G100, sorry to see you had a slip. Time to give GA a go? You've tried doing it 'your way' and it hasnt worked. Sounds harsh mate but I only say that as I have been there many times also.
Hi TM195, thanks for commenting on my thread and well done on nearly reaching the 200 GF milestone. I appreciate your comments, however as i’ve Said before I don’t think GA is for me. I’m sure it works for some people, however I feel that my own situation is under control. I have a 5 year exclusion in place via GAMSTOP so that has stopped the online option, and yes i had one relapse 2 weeks ago but haven’t had the urge to do that again. Previously I wouldn’t have accepted that loss and would have been chasing and betting on anything to make it back. This time I don’t Feel any urge and if anything maybe it has done me a favour as I realised that what I thought I Was missing actually wasn’t with it. Anyway words are cheap so I need to make sure my actions keep me on a happy GF life.
Hi G100, I feel your pain mate. I have just joined here after 12 years of a gambling problem. Iv done GA and counselling and they work for a bit but I always end up going back. Today is day 1 for me, iv got myself in about £5k of debt after paying off £8k previously, I can’t tell my mrs as she has said she will leave me if I do it again so I thought I’d join here and try and talk to people with a similar problem. You have done really well to get where you are. It’s the hardest thing to get over and impossible for people who don’t have the problem to understand. Iv just got to try and find a way to pay off these debts again. Any advise you can offer would be appreciated. Cheers
20 days GF, back on the road to happiness. No urges, won’t be looking back.
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