Hello, 30 something year old mother of 2 that really needs to stop.
I always seem to have one addiction or another, I was addicted to drugs (coke weed at one point pills,) alcohol neither I've which I have touched since 2017.
Since then I have found myself playing slot machines and scratch cards when ever I can. Even when I can't I still find the money.
The past 3 months I've gambled my rent away hoping that I'll get that big win to cover not just what I've gambled but what I'm short on any way. As I'm not currently earning enough to cover bills and food. My girls aren't going without but I find myself loosing weight and not eating right just so they can.Â
I'm lying to my partner about money telling him I've paid things when I haven't and we have ended up in debt that I just can't seem to get out of. It's always like oh another tenner and this will be the win. It isn't. I feel so stupid I know it's a con and yet I still find myself lost in the chase.
I suffer with depression anxiety and BPD all common traits of any addiction I feel like I conquer one addiction and find another. I just want off of this merry go around now. ?Â
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HI you've got this  I am too  addicted to slots and have just banned myself from all arcades and bingo halls local to me and I'm so happy I have try doing that if you can Always happy to chat good luck and I said before you've got this xx
@joanne alot of mine is done online, but banning myself from places like that is next.Â
It's hard because its so acceptable jus to pop into a place like that or just had a game of online bingo.Â
Thank you sometimes talking really does help. 😉Â
It sounds like you are doing well on your recovery x keep it up x
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I am a female gambling addict and I think it can feel much harder for women to reach out for help. That how I felt anyway. But opening that chat window and starting to talk bas been the the best thing I have ever done. I just wish I had done it sooner. It is still early days for me. But feeling much more positive. Please reach out for help if you haven’t already and know that you are not alone.
Have you gone to the doctors about your depression and anxiety?Â
I’m a female gambler! I have realised so many times I need to stop but just keep chasing my loses hoping for a big win and then I will stop. I’ve put myself in terrible financial situation and no one knows. I can’t sleep, hardly eat and feel like a shell if my former self. What on earth is wrong with me. I know now I seriously need to stop for my mental self and before I ruin myself financially. I found online slots during lockdown and just can’t stop.
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