I want to get help

Hello, i am an 18y guy from Romania, i have been struggling with a gambling addiction for around 3 years.

I am sorry for my grammar and terminology, i am not a native english speaker allthough i will try to do my best. Also my mind is very blury right now because i lost a lot in the past days and my post is very all over the place, i apologise and i hope you can still take the time to read it.

In Romania gambling is extremley common although not accepted of course. Because of this noone takes gambling adiction seriousley, if you want to get help you will just get shamed and called insults, but before i continue expending this subject i want to tell you my story.

As previously stated i started gambling about 3y ago but i didn t realize how bad it actualy was untill maybe a year ago when i started selling stuff, borowing money, and even resorted to stealing, i am not proud of any of these actions, but i want to be honest since this is a support forum

I wasn t always like this and i know d**n well my gambling adiction made me the way i am now, i had high hopes and aspirations, i planed out my life for the next 4 years, everything was perfect, just 2 months ago i got accepted in one of if not the best collage in the country, but man it went downhill from there.

I owe in total about 600$ which might not sound like much but that is 2 months labour worth of money in romania, i would gladly go to work the thing is it s very hard to find a job even as a cashier or cleaner. My situation also doesn t help with finding a job as i don t have my driving license yet and i live in a rural area.

I realy don t know if i can ever recover from this, it trully feels like i won t ever beat my addiction, i have about 5 days to gather 200$ to pay for my driving school, money which i of course had, gambled, won back two fold, and lost it all in the span of a week, i fear not being able to focus on studying because of my addiction and overall becoming a b*m.

There is much more to my gambling story but i just can t seem to get my train of tought together so i will end it here, and go on explaning the gaming situation in Romania.

As i previously stated, it s bad, very bad, to get a good *** on how we are doing out here, 5% of our country's anual GDP is from gambling alone, that s just a stupidly high percentage for gambling.

I am trying to get help but it s difficult, i tried talking to my national support center via. online chat and after a brief conversation the NATIONAL REPRESENTATIVE for gambling addiction support advised me to talk to my parents, i of course think this is great advice but in my situtation, and many others' it s just not a good idea, when i told her that she said, and i quote "What are they going to do? Give you more money to gamble?". Uppon hearing this i wished her a good evening and left the chat, i honestly don t know if i was justified, my mind is still clouded by milions of toughts but it made me feel not listened to and like she didn t even care.

I than found this forum and hope i can find people to help me or at least listen to my story.

I again apologise for how my post is structured, if anything about it is unclear feel free to ask me about it.