Gambling addict for over 25 years.
Each month I lose all of my wages by 2nd or 3th i haven't got a penny no food shopping done,no toiletries absolutely nothing.
I always pay my rent first thing in the morning when money comes to my ban at the end of the month never missed single payment to pay rent in last 25 years.How is that even possible if I am so called heavy gambler?
This month I gambled each day from time I got paid same as usual no changes.I didn't lose my money (yet)and I told myself that I won't bet for big amount of money.
Always chasing that hit like drug addict scoring a bag of heroine.Its exactly the same process except you're not damaging your internal body
Well we do damage our brain with it but it's not visible except mood changes etc
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Hope one day I will stop gambling completely for good
I’m the same , been doing the same thing every week for 20 years . Day 2 todayÂ
Hi
Not many people abstain from addictions from day one of entering the recovery program.
The most important thing is to keep going to meeting no matter when your last bet was.
From each bet we get to understand what our last emotional trigger was and how to stop reacting to our emotional triggers.
It was hard to hand over my finances but I did it.
By reducing the amount of money on my person reduced my risk of gambling.
The money was simply the fuel for my addiction.
In time I found a room which was well in to giving deep healthy therapies.
At one time I got to understand that I needed more than one meeting per week.
I have been in recovery over 50 years.
I have been clean from gambling and in recovery over 32 year.
I am often asked why go to meetings if you do not gamble now.
I am going to meetings because it helps get me motivated in being the healthiest person I can be today.
I am going to meetings because it helps me fulfill my healthy needs.
I am going to meetings because it helps me fulfill my healthy wants.
I am going to meetings because it helps me fulfill my healthy goals.
I am a non religious person yet I understand how unhealthy I use to be.
It takes time to heal the hurt inner child in me.
Just for today I do not want or need to gamble.
Gambling was a form of self abuse to me.
Healing Love and peace to every one.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham.
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