Im sitting here in front of my netbook computer having just spent my last penny in the bank. I have absolutely no money left and just lost my job last month due to this evil beast of a disease. Gambling. I've lost everything including my car that i sold before yesterday to get me by, i was actually going to buy a cheaper car with the money and ended up blowing the entire 4,5K on blackjack casino. I have a wife and 1 child and she is aware of the situation and can't stand to look at me right now. She has been nothing but supportive but i relapse right back into a worse situation everytime, no fail. These past few days have been the worst of the lot as i have never gambled a possession like a car before. It's sickening to think of it at the moment but at the time of gambling all i think about is chasing my losses and when there is a big payout i think im back on track only to cancel a withdrawal in the space of an hour or two and losing it all. It's disgusting, these websites deliberately market this to c*****e you financially, but then again it doesn't jstify my greed in thinking that a massive payout will solve my problems.
I feel there is no hope left. As soon as i get my hands on some money, i blow it all, every last penny. I can barely afford food and am relying on my other half who works part-time. She has got fed up.
Im at the brink of losing my family and being on the streets.
There's only one thing that resorts to mind when i think of all this but it wouldn''t be fair on my family. What a waste i am 🙁
Hello mate
You know that you have a problem and coming here is your attempt to start to find help. Your wife has supported you do far and although she can't stand to look at you at the moment, it seems that she has been aware of what is going on.
Your situation sounds very much like my own. I too had to sell my car but that was when the bailiffs came round and that's when my wife knew there was a problem although she had known that something wasn't right as for months I'd been secretive about money, always kept my phone on silent and found ways to avoid paying for food shopping.
My wife kicked me out for a little while which fave her time tostada getting her head around the situation that I put us in. I even stooped do low as to steal money from my 2 year old daughters savings!
We are now starting to piece things together now.
I have been attending GAeetings locally and have found them to be useful. The people there are the only people that you can talk to about your problem knowing that they understand what it is like to be a compulsive gambler. Nobody else can understand why you didn't just stop.
Have a go at the meetings. Be open and honest with your wife and commit to becoming gamble free.
Good luck with your recovery.
Scary what this disease can do to you!
I;'ve a young familly 2 kids under 3 and I feel your pain.
I think you should seek help and try and get some counselling. Phone the helpline here.
My wife doesnt know im back at it again but if she did i'd be well gone, cant win as cant stop, true to all of us.
best wishes
gavin
Hi
First you get through today your problems are for another day. So try get through today without a bet and then work on tomorrow. This disease is a nightmare but you can get through it but you cannot solve all the problems it has caused at once. One day at a time you can sort this.
Mic hael
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