Need to stop

So here I am again, where I was when Iast posted, where I seem to have been for the last 5 years of my life. I 'm a student so i'm pretty skint anyway but I got a tax rebate of 930 friday night at midnght. Come saturday midnight and it's all gone. The worry thing is I owed people money from that but totaly disregarded that and went and lost it all. I am starting to dislike who I have become. Another worry thing is, the majority was on virtual horse racing! Fake horses that are simulated by a computer. I feel like this is my new time low and I am not in a good place right now. Some who may read this are probaly thinking i'm overracting its only 930 pounds. I want to get help and go counselling but I am so busy with uni work and trying to get through these last two months, then try face this thing head on. I have excluded myself from the last site I had access to (I know I should of done this sooner). I'm worried to tell my family as I feel like this will be the last straw for them. I wish I never met gamblind 🙁

So here I am again, where I was when Iast posted, where I seem to have been for the last 5 years of my life. I 'm a student so i'm pretty skint anyway but I got a tax rebate of 930 friday night at midnght. Come saturday midnight and it's all gone. The worry thing is I owed people money from that but totaly disregarded that and went and lost it all. I am starting to dislike who I have become. Another worry thing is, the majority was on virtual horse racing! Fake horses that are simulated by a computer. I feel like this is my new time low and I am not in a good place right now. Some who may read this are probaly thinking i'm overracting its only 930 pounds. I want to get help and go counselling but I am so busy with uni work and trying to get through these last two months, then try face this thing head on. I have excluded myself from the last site I had access to (I know I should of done this sooner). I'm worried to tell my family as I feel like this will be the last straw for them. I wish I never met gamblind 🙁

So here I am again, where I was when Iast posted, where I seem to have been for the last 5 years of my life. I 'm a student so i'm pretty skint anyway but I got a tax rebate of 930 friday night at midnght. Come saturday midnight and it's all gone. The worry thing is I owed people money from that but totaly disregarded that and went and lost it all. I am starting to dislike who I have become. Another worry thing is, the majority was on virtual horse racing! Fake horses that are simulated by a computer. I feel like this is my new time low and I am not in a good place right now. Some who may read this are probaly thinking i'm overracting its only 930 pounds. I want to get help and go counselling but I am so busy with uni work and trying to get through these last two months, then try face this thing head on. I have excluded myself from the last site I had access to (I know I should of done this sooner). I'm worried to tell my family as I feel like this will be the last straw for them. I wish I never met gamblind 🙁

So here I am again, where I was when Iast posted, where I seem to have been for the last 5 years of my life. I 'm a student so i'm pretty skint anyway but I got a tax rebate of 930 friday night at midnght. Come saturday midnight and it's all gone. The worry thing is I owed people money from that but totaly disregarded that and went and lost it all. I am starting to dislike who I have become. Another worry thing is, the majority was on virtual horse racing! Fake horses that are simulated by a computer. I feel like this is my new time low and I am not in a good place right now. Some who may read this are probaly thinking i'm overracting its only 930 pounds. I want to get help and go counselling but I am so busy with uni work and trying to get through these last two months, then try face this thing head on. I have excluded myself from the last site I had access to (I know I should of done this sooner). I'm worried to tell my family as I feel like this will be the last straw for them. I wish I never met gamblind 🙁

So here I am again, where I was when Iast posted, where I seem to have been for the last 5 years of my life. I 'm a student so i'm pretty skint anyway but I got a tax rebate of 930 friday night at midnght. Come saturday midnight and it's all gone. The worry thing is I owed people money from that but totaly disregarded that and went and lost it all. I am starting to dislike who I have become. Another worry thing is, the majority was on virtual horse racing! Fake horses that are simulated by a computer. I feel like this is my new time low and I am not in a good place right now. Some who may read this are probaly thinking i'm overracting its only 930 pounds. I want to get help and go counselling but I am so busy with uni work and trying to get through these last two months, then try face this thing head on. I have excluded myself from the last site I had access to (I know I should of done this sooner). I'm worried to tell my family as I feel like this will be the last straw for them. I wish I never met gamblind 🙁

So here I am again, where I was when Iast posted, where I seem to have been for the last 5 years of my life. I 'm a student so i'm pretty skint anyway but I got a tax rebate of 930 friday night at midnght. Come saturday midnight and it's all gone. The worry thing is I owed people money from that but totaly disregarded that and went and lost it all. I am starting to dislike who I have become. Another worry thing is, the majority was on virtual horse racing! Fake horses that are simulated by a computer. I feel like this is my new time low and I am not in a good place right now. Some who may read this are probaly thinking i'm overracting its only 930 pounds. I want to get help and go counselling but I am so busy with uni work and trying to get through these last two months, then try face this thing head on. I have excluded myself from the last site I had access to (I know I should of done this sooner). I'm worried to tell my family as I feel like this will be the last straw for them. I wish I never met gamblind 🙁

So here I am again, where I was when Iast posted, where I seem to have been for the last 5 years of my life. I 'm a student so i'm pretty skint anyway but I got a tax rebate of 930 friday night at midnght. Come saturday midnight and it's all gone. The worry thing is I owed people money from that but totaly disregarded that and went and lost it all. I am starting to dislike who I have become. Another worry thing is, the majority was on virtual horse racing! Fake horses that are simulated by a computer. I feel like this is my new time low and I am not in a good place right now. Some who may read this are probaly thinking i'm overracting its only 930 pounds. I want to get help and go counselling but I am so busy with uni work and trying to get through these last two months, then try face this thing head on. I have excluded myself from the last site I had access to (I know I should of done this sooner). I'm worried to tell my family as I feel like this will be the last straw for them. I wish I never met gamblind 🙁

So here I am again, where I was when Iast posted, where I seem to have been for the last 5 years of my life. I 'm a student so i'm pretty skint anyway but I got a tax rebate of 930 friday night at midnght. Come saturday midnight and it's all gone. The worry thing is I owed people money from that but totaly disregarded that and went and lost it all. I am starting to dislike who I have become. Another worry thing is, the majority was on virtual horse racing! Fake horses that are simulated by a computer. I feel like this is my new time low and I am not in a good place right now. Some who may read this are probaly thinking i'm overracting its only 930 pounds. I want to get help and go counselling but I am so busy with uni work and trying to get through these last two months, then try face this thing head on. I have excluded myself from the last site I had access to (I know I should of done this sooner). I'm worried to tell my family as I feel like this will be the last straw for them. I wish I never met gamblind 🙁

Sorry I'm not sure why it posted that five times.

Read Glint's post, 15.

You have a choice. Either you can carry on as you are and keep posting on here how bad you feel, no doubt you do, it's a horrible addiction. Or you can make the changes that need to be made to overcome this. Get blocking software, ditch your smartphone for a brick, tell your family so that they can take control of your money, use GC, go to GA. (Women do go to GA, some places even have women's meetings, otherwise other GA members may be mainly male but the meetings are still about overcoming gambling).

It starts with you. Do things differently this time.

CW

Hi will power , I've just read your post . My name is lawrence I've been gamble free for 14 days now and I've been gambling for 26 years I'm 43 now .! It was the same for me fruit machines ! I've lost so much of my life but it is never to late to stop and get help . You have to forget about all your loses and stop chasing them because it's the chase g that will get you further in debt and your gambling will not stop . You need to stop right now mate and make today the new start . This gambling site is fantastic, people don't judge you, they will help you and give you the advice and support you need . There is a chatroom every night from 8 till 9 I will be on there if you need to talk . Try and be positive because you have taken the first step to get help , you've admitted you have a problem and are trying to do something about it . Counselling will help you to mate , I do one to one and it does help me , if you contact the net line there will be someone to help you sort that out . Best wishes mate , lawrence

Instead of the tendency you have to post after a recent loss - which is fine, I'm always happy to offer support, use the forum however it helps you - maybe if you started a recovery diary you might find committing to the site daily would be easier to work around university and you will be sure of support and advice. Even if it's just for two months until you have more time for things like counselling.

A ВЈ930 loss is no overreaction. It's a sign of how serious your addiction is. I had a tax rebate of about £700 a good few years ago. I did the same, all lost as quickly as it came in the bookies.

Well done for self-excluding.

It isn't going to seem like it but you are in a good position to turn this around. The debt alone from my gambling is and will continue to make renting and even getting certain jobs difficult.

Things can and will get much worse, or you can start to try to make things better.

Thank you for your comments both of you. I think the diary is a good idea as I can go day by day until I finish university. I had two hynotherapy sessions a while back but I didn't feel like they were working. Has anyone else tried these? Is it worth trying that again or is counselling better? Glint you seem to have regularly commented on my thread and have always given good advice, I feel rude that I haven't asked about you. How is your situation? Are you still gambling?

I gambled for over ten years. Never had much which is probably a good thing, because I lost what little I had. I didn't even have a home or bank account at one point.

My situation is that I'm trying my best now to change my life and help others on my way.

I read your story and want to get through to you how devastating this addiction can be. At 24, I wasn't ready to stop gambling; I had no family or education. Still don't. You're in a stronger position than I ever have been.

That's what worries me. I never had much to lose. I can only imagine what it would be like to lose a family and future.

Ultimately, it doesn't matter what you have that I don't. If you carry on you'll find yourself in exactly the same place I was wondering 'what's the point?'.

I joined the forum three days before you. In that time I've gambled twice. Once in February, completely lost control and even track of how much money I lost. About £250 on FOBT and virtual horse racing. Then played lottery in March.

I'm very much at the bottom still, but working my way up, or at least trying to.

Hypnosis or counselling?

I don't think it matters which is better. All that matters is which is better for you.

Keep trying new things until something works. Commit to change or you will end up doing the same thing.

Seek help for underlying mood disorders. Depression, stress, substance abuse, or anxiety can both trigger gambling problems and be made worse by compulsive gambling. Even when gambling is no longer a part of your life, these problems will still remain, so it’s important to address them.