new mum and back gambling :(

Hi hobbit. ..welcome...you will get plenty of suppport on here...my vice was online slots...very dangerous. ...always open...no need to even dress or go out the door ..just sit at home and spin away.

Like you...I thought I was one spin away from winning enough to wipe out all debts

It doesn't happen like that does it
Those online slots will suck you in...chew you up and spit you out....get some blocks in place so you simply can't play...and with some will power as well you will be on your way to giving up this vile addiction that has taken not just your money but the irreplaceable time from your baby...it's not easy my love...beleive me...but if you really want to do it...only you can ......have you got a partner who can help you...or a close friend...like you said these should be the best days of your life ...and they can be....ring gamcare love...they will give you some sound advice....and everytime you fancy a spin of those pathetic reels
..come on here and talk away...or read ....it will help...good luck x

Hi loxxie

Thanks for your support I really appreciate this, I spoke to my husband and he has been so supportive, i can't believe I put him through this and he has still stuck by me, I am day two of gambling and I keep getting thoughts, I gambled £1200 yhe other day and my head keeps thinking one more bet but I know this is a destructive cycle, I have refereed myself to the counselling on this website and hopefully it can be the start of my recovery, I feel so angry I've gambled over 20k on debt and so much more hundred of thousands probably over the years, I hope I can get through this and not give in to the thoughts which keep saying one more bet, this website is a life saver as while I'm having fought a of gambling I just come on here to try and stay away from it, how long are you gambling free Loxxie???

Hey hobbit...well done on speaking to hubby....it can't of been easy...good on you....me...I'm only 30 odd days gamble free....but I've embraced recovery will a full heart...like you I've lost loads of cash...but I've let go of that now....that was yesterday....nothing I can do about it....and I'm sure as he'll not spending more to get and get some back....I've had good days....bad days....and everything in between....get those firm blocks in place so you can't hit the slots.....look at your baby...your hubby...and your self and forget those vile slots.....all they will do is sick you in...chew you up.... and then spit you out.....you can do this my love....one day at a time
...with your man beside you....and your baby in your arms.....good luck sweetheart....take a read of my diary....it may help....it may not....but if it stops you taking a spin....then that's good x

Hi Hobbit

I joined lat week; I was a cracking online poker player who won loads & then lost twice as much; how stupid is that ? I admitted to being a fool / addict etc to myself last week. The ppl on here are so helpful. You have a baby ? o*g look into his eyes & think how lucky you are. That is so obvious yet so far from your thoughts I know but hang in there. Avoid the sh** & chat to gamcare & random ppl who understand on here. gl xx

Hi hobbit

We are all here for you i am the old guy with no sense for 40 years lost a lot gained little.

I have no excuses anymore so time to move on. Try not to let it consume your thoughts i also suffere from depression so probably is more difficult to stop.

I used betting shops as a santuary were i felt like someone when the thoughts consumed me.

Its probably like any addiction short term fix life long problem.

May sound quite deep but i do have a great sense of humour which will help me so SEE GAMBLING as Golam my little precious remember your a hobbit lol

Hi littlehobbit

Well done for coming here and seeking help, you made the right choice. You said you already went to GA and you managed to stay Gamble free for 4 years. Is there no reason you can't go back? Quiting smoking and reframing from Gambling requires a lot of strength and self control. I know from personel expeirence, so big congratulations there. If you did it once, you can do it again.

Being in debt and the temptation to gamble for that one big win is a dangerous place to be. It never happens, and will just get you deeper into debt. I know life feels like you've hit rock bottom and it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. As others have pointed out here. Persue all the help you can, put all the barriers in place. Gamcare is a great tool and resource for finding what works for you. as well as providing the support you need among like minded people. All the best, Matt

I wish you all the best in recovery. I just started today. You can be strong again ! You did it before !

Hi guys

Wee update thanks for all your supportive messages, I am now gambling free a week tommorow, it has been very difficult the last week as I have been constantly thinking of gambling but trying to find the will to stay away which I have done, I keep experiencing anger and disappointment at the so called big wins that I used to have and my mind plays tricks on me to say oh this could happen again and boy that urge is soooooo strong!!! I won 18k on a online casino once and put it all back on and lost more!!! Totally crazy my head keeps saying why did you not walk away and life would have been so much simpler or debt would be paid, even as j am writing this to you all I can feel the urges coming back. I got paid today and again that is another trigger as anytime I have money I get thoughts of maybe I'll win big this time! I hate this really do and I keep looking into the forum every night to fight those urges, just hope I can keep going, I wish you all the best and I am grateful for any advice how to fight those horrible mind gripping thoughts

thanks for your support

little hobbit

Hi, I know just how you feel not even a week for me and thoses urges are strong i find the night time feeds the worse my yongest is 3 months and waking every 3 hours still, I find this forum very helpful.

l I wish you all the best in recovery x