Pain we are causing to ourselves in prior to escape the battle within our own minds

@wbr9jcpn3y  Truth spoken Johhn.

I am just unpacking the emotional damage that the gambling was masking.

Unresolved inner conflicts.  Negative feelings ect...  Gambling switched it all off.  But in return I never faced the issues and was rewarded with the punishment of a crippling addiction that drained all enjoyment and peace from my life.

I have had to face certain realities recently that the gambling hid.  It feels good though.  I am working it all out.

Take care and keep us updated with your own progress.

Hi Bean been on the same boat started gambling when I was about 14 yrs of age,broken family father alcoholic and gambler who taught me how to gamble and told me it was OK.

Long story short gambled on everyday since that age.Almost everyday the days I had a fuel to get gambling going (moneys)

Father suicided few years back.

I never touched alcohol in my life,but gambling been a big evil in my life

Hi

Once I was able to abstain from my unhealthy gambling I could start to heal my pains.

There were times I use to think that I loved gambling that is was the most exciting thing in my life.

Now I understand that my unhealthy gambling was a form of escape.

I spent time at work and then at the end of each month chuck that money away.

In recovery I would work out my net hourly wage and then knew it was not money I was wasting but wasting my time.

In time I understand that we are not bad evil right or worng people we are in fact unhealthy vulnerable people. 

For me recovery is to heal my pains.

I do not use the mental health wording but it just means we are emotionally vulnerable and reacting in some very unhealthy ways..

Recovery is about being perfect but being much healthier.

Pains in my life caused fears in me that I did not understand.

Winning or getting easy money is and ws not healthy for me.

Thanks for sharing.

Dave L