Feel like life is one big panic attack. Feeling strange like not in pain but head is tense. I expected to feel bad  after losing so much money. Body prob messed up with adrenaline. Probably all in the mind but scared to go to hospital to cause fuss as my family already hate meÂ
Hey Ryan,
It sounds as though you are in a difficult place. Have you spoken to anyone that can support you? Samaritans or GamCare? Please make sure you reach out to someone. You don’t have to be alone with how you feel. Ever x
I cannot beat this alone x
you can’t Ryan but we are here
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Hi Ryan , sorry to here you are having a difficult time , you are not alone we are all here to help , Gamcare have got a chat we’re you can speak to a one on one online , or the phone number is
please don’t think your aloneÂ
I called gamcare. Just taking things day by day, hour by hour.Â
Glad you called GamCare Ryan. It will be hour by hour, day by day but you can do this with the support on here. I didn’t think I could back in November but I am here, gamble free and with a new purpose. Maybe try to join the chatroom if you can. It runs for an hour from 1pm and 8pm each day. It has helped me hugelyÂ
I second this Ryan, the chat rooms are really helpful especially if you just want to talk to people should will understand. It’s definitely helped me today.Â
Hello @ryanwhyte89,
It sounds like you're having a really tough time at the moment. I want to reiterate what the lovely, supportive forum members have said above, because it's so very true. You're not alone in this, there's so much support available for you.Â
I'm glad to see you've taken the step of speaking to one of our advisers already. We provide an ongoing source of support around your gambling and recovery, so if you're feeling overwhelmed and panicking, or need to talk things through for any reason, you can get in touch again on the Helpline (0808 8020 133) or Netline (www.gamcare.org.uk/get-support/talk-to-us-now), there's someone to talk to 24 hours a day, every day. The Samaritans are also there to listen kindly and non-judgmentally on any subject and can be reached on 116 123, free from any phone.
You mention hospital in your original post, but not wanting to cause a fuss, please don't take any risks with your health. If you're worried, something doesn't feel right, or you don't feel safe, you can always call 111 (the non-emergency health number) and get advice on what you should do. It sounds like you may be suffering from anxiety, so it would be a good idea to make an appointment to speak to your GP about how you're feeling. That way you can get support and advice from a medical professional to help you be in the strongest possible place through your recovery.Â
Well done for reaching out on the forum. As has already been shown, this is a fantastic place to get support from people who have been or are going through the same things as you. Hour-by-hour, day-by-day, you can do this.Â
Kindest regards,
Elizabeth
Forum Admin
Hi Ryan,Â
My boyfriend is 6 months gamble free with help from every source possible, that got him through hour by hour in the initial stages. Take the advice from all of these people on here, they understand the most and accept every bit of help you can.
Sending good thoughts x
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Dear Ryan,
I have just left the chat room and as I have done since joining in the last 11 days I always read some forum threads afterwards, usually starting with the newest ones, so here I am arriving at yours. I echo everything above and say from one compulsive gambler to (it sounds like) another... you really are NOT alone. This is a strong and powerful thought that we have as in our heads, we can't possibly fathom or make sense of what we have done to ourselves and to others. Of course we would imagine that we are alone and that no other person could possibly understand the madness of our minds - but here we are my friend, in our thousands, all coming together through the wonderful hub Gamcare has provided for us to meet, to talk, to realise and to KNOW that we are most definitely not alone.
Please come to the chat room later this evening (8pm for you guys) which is 3am for me as I am currently travelling through Thailand, but I am going to set my alarm to wake up at that time to join chat as this has to be the most important part of my day. I am also going to attempt to mediate for half an hour if I can afterwards, on the beach at 4am!
Ryan, we all need each other. I have spent 50 years of my life... FIFTY YEARS hiding from the world gambling my head off, nervous of wanting to be around other people, not really knowing how to be if I am honest, always struggling with my identity and spending a lifetime wanting to be liked and accepted by people and to be a people pleaser. What a complete waste of time. But its gone, its the past and at this moment, on this trip, I am trying to let go of that past on a daily basis, to let go of all the pain, all the misery, all the negativity in my life and there's so much of it, all the self-pity, all the 'I am not good enough c**P' and all those inner critics that constantly want to beliitle me and tell me I am worthless.
NO. I am not worthless. I am worthwhile, and because of that, because I now, finally, truly see that and accept that about myself, I no longer need to keep visiting gambling places where only those who truly see themselves as worthless go. That's not me anymore, and I don't believe its you anymore either. Head help up high friend, today is a new day, its the start of a brand new life for a deserving people called Ryan, Simon and every other soul on this site.
I hope this has helped in some way and I shall be thinking of you a lot. There are some amazing people on this site by the way, really amazing people. Don't pass them by without getting to know them and hear their stories and all the learning there is for us from that. I feel so grateful today. Thank you for being here for me Ryan.
All the very best, Simon.
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