Hello, I have been a gambler for about twenty years now. It started innocently enough with five bucks here and there. Then progressed to twenty here and there...then every chance I had. When I felt all was lost, I quit. It wasn't easy and every minute of the day all I could think about was gambling. Really, the only reason I didn't was the lack of funds. Which is usually the only reason I don't. I went in spurts. Play my pay check, cry then quit...for awhile. The desire and urge takes over any logic or reason. It all changed when I met my wife. Everything a person could ever dream for or want. The only person I had ever been completely honest with and open to. Now I might have messed that up. I feel as though I deserve that. She's hard working(the only one working) and although I have been searching, I am unemployed and racking up debt. It started with one credit card in her name...then two...and every time I lost, I felt so sick and helpless that I would take more to try and get back what I lost. I never wanted her to feel ashamed or Andre at me. But things are progressively getting worse. I am unable to even make a small payment here and there and she does not deserve to have her good name ruined by the likes of me. I am certain I will be talking to her when she gets home from work about this and am devasted and nervous and so scared of the outcome. I have nothing without her. Literally. And how could I have been so stupid to ruin my relationship with her?? The best gift I had ever received. I'm at my bottom. Feel so helpless and lost
Hi Lisah - this addiction destroys life’s and I have been in your position. The only way that you will maintain your life/relationship is by stopping - so whatever the next few days / weeks bring try to avoid gambling this will only make things worse! Keep posting
Hi, just thought I’d offer some support. Just started my own GF journey, please keep posting and let us know how it's going. Remember you're not alone.
How did telling her go?
Thank you for the feedback. Sadly, I have not told her yet as we had unexpected company show up shortly before she arrived home. I did not feel it was appropriate to tell her when others were around. Nor did I feel it ok to tell her this morning right before she left for work. Looks like another long day of guilt. I have no intentions on gambling and I hope I remain strong. The hardest part for me is the unknown. It's very scary. But I know I have to move forward in all. Thank you everyone for the support.
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