Relapsed

Hi Mary...I'm only on day 17 so not very qualified to offer advice...but just wanted to say none of us are perfect love...and I can see how easy it is to slip up...don't beat yourself up love...brush yourself off and try again...what's done is
Done. ..that was yesterday....think of tomorrow..good luck x

Hello Mary 111

Sounds very familiar.

I've been desperately chasing for hours and (on very rare occasions) finally been in profit again but despite the hours of 'please just let me win my money back' thoughts with every spin I've still gone on to lose it all again. We can't stop.

It is sad that days of hard work can be undone in hours. That's why it's important to keep working at this.

Slips will happen. I've read a lot of them in my short time here. All you can do is let the money go and learn from it.

All the good work isn't gone. 128 days is really good. You know what to do but might need to do a bit more.

Maybe look at the GamBlock issue now to prevent it happening again.

Best wishes

Glint

I'm in floods of tears at all your lovely supportive words. It's so nice that the people on this site care so much. You are very special people. By reading your caring words I felt like you were all giving me a great big hug. I don't often comment on people's posts as I feel inadequate sometime but I can see how very important it is now. I feel i've let myself down and all you lovely people by mainly focussing on myself. I will change

Big hugs Mary...we are all only one step away from relapse...stick the kettle on love...draw breath
..and start again xxx

Aww Mary you are not inadequate, people on the site wether cg or ff all want the same outcome for each other - to have a better life and to recover from being a cg. You have done so well in reaching 128 days! you can do it again. Don't let this beat you, you have obviously worked very hard in those 128 days. You could start posting more, your experiences and words of support could help others in the same position. Is there anybody you can hand your finances over to so it would make it difficult for you to gamble if you got the urge again. Join us on the chat room 8pm-9pm every night. Good luck - wcid

Hi Mary , Don't beat yourself up too much , I'ts a few hours out of 128 day's .

Be Proud you stopped again and came back home to here ! all the family's here to support and give you a big cyber cuddle , so pick yourself up , dust yourself down and push on from where you left off !

Take care honey x

i've had another good weep and got it out my system. What I hate after the damage has been done that horrible trembly feeling inside. God alone knows what its doing to our bodies. I must remember that i felt more relaxed and happy when not playing ....so it's a no brainer ....don't play. Going to wipe those tears away and dust myself down and aim for 129 days minimum. This compulsion won't beat me and I hope it won't beat any one of you. I thought last night I could just put £50 in and control it as I felt stronger....ha ha. I got that one wrong. wishing you all good good luck on your journey. I think i am a bit depressed and that is why the urges get strong as i feel it numbs the pain but it just creates more pain. Going to start walking and cycling. I've even deleted all the games like candy crush and solitair of my phone. i don't want a life sitting endlessly pressing buttons. i felt a broken women this morning but the strength I have got from all your posts has given me new strength...thank you.

Have you sought any help from Gamcare? Any counselling? Help from places like Gamblers Anonymous?

when I first joined I was to get counselling. The counsellor was to phone me to make an appointment but I never got a call. Probably be a good idea to follow that up now. I'm not keen to go to Gamblers Anonymous as not comfortable is a group situation.

Mary, sorry to hear you didn't get a call back. If you give our Helpline a call on 0808 8020 133 we'll give you the number of the counselling agency so you can call them direct - or you can find the numbers on our website: http://www.gamcare.org.uk/support-and-counselling/face-face-counselling/find-local-counselling

Take care

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The counselling might be very useful. Problem gambling is often closely linked with depression, anxiety and low self-esteem.

You are not inadequate and shouldn't feel that way.

That is the problem I think I've been depressed for a long time through some tragedies in my life. I think it has caused an addictive personality as i noticed in other areas of my life I cannot do things in a normal fashion ....it's all or nothing. Maybe talking things through with a counsellor will help this. Worth a try. I've had too many years of this compulsive behaviour destroying my life.

Hi Mary, firstly well done on the 128 days and secondly, well done for taking control and stopping so soon after you started. I relapsed for a few weeks and was down 4 figures before I took control again. We cannot do anything about our past gambling but we can strive to take each day at a time, whilst putting in blocks wherever we can.

If you read my diary you will find that I was disappointed by a counsellor on a few occasions and I chose to continue to gamble. But, this time I decided I would not give up pestering them and with the result I have a telephone counselling session once a week and really find it helps. So, keep trying to contact them!

Finallly, depression and low self esteem only ignite the flames of addiction; if you feel you are low in mood, please contact your GP. It won't be the first time they have come across a patient with the same/similar problems.

Take care and very best wishes xxx

Thanks Annie for your reply. I will definitly try to get counselling as think its long overdue. i did speak to my gp and told them what I was doing. But they said I wasn't depressed enough as I was getting up , getting washed and going out. Also eating so they would not refer me for counselling. She recommended I go on line and do cognitive behaviour therapy. How bad does think have to get before folk get help???