I’ve been gambling since I was 18 I’m now 28. It all started when a friend told me to take a sign up bonus that he had won a fortune on…I tried it and tried again and a decade later I have burned my savings more times than I can remember. Very brutal gambling I lose all awareness it’s not even money anymore I spend every penny no matter how much I have saved I don’t realise how much I’m losing until the next day. June 2023 I had enough and quit I’m on gamstop and banned from all local places. But recently I was watching YouTube and seen people gambling with crypto. It was like Christmas being on a slot again in so long. Before you know it I’ve burned all money I saved in my year clean. A huge loss. I’ve been in this sick feeling so many times but I never learn. I had to tell my partner what I did and it was tough as I’d already put her through hell years prior. Relapse is very painful. I’ve deleted all the crypto stuff and just trying to accept the loss once again. I can’t believe I did this to myself once again.
thanks for reading
Hi there.
Sorry to hear you have relapsed but you must remember that you have gone a whole year g.f which is fantastic!👏👏👏👏. Please commend yourself for this and get straight back on your horse, clocking up your g.f days again. You will soon start to feel much better, both mentally and physically.
Look after yourself.
Pink Lady🩷🍎.
Well done mate 1 year is a great achievenment it shows you have the ability to do it, am coming close to year already been in that situation so i understand now it doent matter 1 month clean or 10 years cleans a relapse will end up the same what u can do is use this as a reminder for next time as u will get through this, you can never get complacent with this illness i managed almost 3 years before a major relapse so i already understand the implications
@j5a6meyr4z Thankyou I just wish I stopped before it got super out of control but I just need to accept the loss. I’ve been through this a thousand times but it’s just different after going so long without it. I felt such an idiot telling my partner I’d burned all our savings.
@tazman I just hate waking up remembering what I’ve done to our savings. What’s mad is I won’t buy myself a t shirt but il gladly put the price of a car in a website without thought. I just don’t understand my brain or why I’m like this. It’s ruined my adult life I just wish I hadn’t discovered it. With how painful it is this time I’m going to make sure I remember how I feel when the next possession I like to call it because I do feel possessed at times.
@dyl996 i totally understand this is addiction is like no other when i relapassed after 3 years clean i did exactly that and few relapses after it only this time around i understand the importance of the first bet has long its not places my life is great, i also understand the urgues can come out at anytime so what i can do is make changes on my part, i already had an an encourter 5 days ago, i made the wrong decisions and their was a 99% chance i would have relapsed so it my responsibility to make these changes next time i might be so lucky
We are available 24 hours a day, every day of the year. You can also contact us for free on 0808 80 20 133. If you would like to find out more about the service before you start, including information on confidentiality, please click below. Call recordings and chat transcripts are saved for 28 days for quality assurance.
