Rock bottom

Thank you for replying. I'm going to try on my own and with the help of a friend before I tell her. I have been different recently and she has noticed you're right. She thinks it's my work and I'm going to keep it that way for now. I don't know if I'm kidding myself but I don't feel like a CG. It's just poker really. I've spoken with gam care and they have given me a couple of apps to restrict gambling on my phone which is the main problem. I lose all value of what money is. I appreciate you taking the time to reply. I hope your husband is doing ok

Hi and welcome to the forum.

Why delay what is going to come out in the wash in the future?

Why dont you get a non internet based phone so you cant play?

Just a couple of questions that spring to mind.

I will answer your question. Yes you are kidding yourself and yes you display the behaviour of a cg.

Can you recover from it. Of course you can. Willpower alone will not stop you if you want a punt. Just one more might be the biggie. We have all said that and failed miserably!!.

You feel rotten cause you feel guilty. My biggest relief in life was when the gambling walls caved in and i was caught. Might as well have had a bag marked swag and a signed confession your honour!

Need to put some steps in place.

Hand over finances completely
Carry no cash
If you have cash account to the last penny and with receipts.
Counselling
GA

The list goes on.

If the debt is an issue think about a debt management plan. I use stepchange.

More importantly your partner finding out before you tell her. That might be your biggest issue.

Best wishes

jsar18 wrote:

Thank you for replying. I'm going to try on my own and with the help of a friend before I tell her. I have been different recently and she has noticed you're right. She thinks it's my work and I'm going to keep it that way for now. I don't know if I'm kidding myself but I don't feel like a CG. It's just poker really. I've spoken with gam care and they have given me a couple of apps to restrict gambling on my phone which is the main problem. I lose all value of what money is. I appreciate you taking the time to reply. I hope your husband is doing ok

Hi Jsar18, you sound very similar to me. I'm new to this forum, only registered yesterday. I'm not ready yet to give advise, pleae read my thread in the newbies section.

I have a stressful job, my wife thinks its work. We have 3 children under 12 years which is stressful, I've blamed them. But mixing the two with being a CG makes things much worse, especially when the stress is loses or worrying about payments and being found out.

"I'm going to try on my own" this is a bold statement, honestly mate I don't think it will work. I'd love to do the same, but I cannot tell even my best friend, or my parents. I need to tell my wife and with her help, love and understanding (after the initial upset) I'm hoping the two of us will put me on the road to recovery. However I've been reading this forum for about a month now and it makes me feel better, even after a few tears have been shed, because we all have the same problem, we all need help. I'm aiming to attend my first GA meeting a week on Friday, thats after I tell my wife about the debts and my addiction. Not going to be easy.

"Its just poker really"............I can say honestly say "Its just sports betting" that's my problem. Large amounts small odds, I rarely bet over even money. I thought I was good at it but its got me nowhere. "I lose all value of what money is".......same here, I never thought my next bet could lose, but it did, many times.

I know I must tell my wife before she finds out. I've hidden it away for two years now, I know I've changed as a person for the worse. So when I know this what do others say (especially behind your back). I haven't bet in over a week now, but I feel better for it. I know its very, very early days, but I'm aloud to feel better, I need the confidence to tell the wife. Just hoping I can do it next week.

Good luck Jsar18, which ever route you choose to get through this addiction. I will be reading your posts, all the best.

Good luck to you both. I also feel its impossible to do this alone.ive told the (ex) partner ( which looks like the final straw for her, 2 years of hell ive put her through) and family. Im getting to ga asap ( currently homeless atm so not easy) . I think you need every tiny bit of help to try beat this illness. Its so so hard in the uk ... ur bombarded night and day with gambling , and u cant walk for 1 min in any town or city without a 1/2 dozen bookies staring you in face.... be strong friends... my journey starts now as well !

Thanks guys, I've just had the worst day of all time and it's nice to have some people who understand what a complete moron I am. I've never had such a deep feeling of guilt that I do today. I won so much money yesterday.. It was ridiculous, how I couldn't have the perspective to see that and just cash the hell out when it was in front of me I don't understand. Lost soul you make a good point, I don't get how it's even legal to have what is essentially gambling supermarkets lining the streets, ridiculous. That's not my actual problem to be honest but its still the culture from where my issue has arisen. Thanks again everyone