I'm new here but unfortunately not new to trying to quit gambling. I am addicted to online slots.Â
I have hit my lowest point though. I self excluded myself last year but I ended up asking to use a family members bank details so "they could keep an eye on me". Turns out that doesn't work either and now I have shamefully lost a lot of money and they can see that on their bank statements.Â
I have deleted all their details and told them to say no if i ever ask again, admitted to them I have an addiction and now I am trying to over come the urge from wanting to gamble but also the shame at losing so much money- 700 in 2 days.
I can't help but have so many negative feelings about myself yet I'm still wishing I could gamble one last time to make up what I lost but I know that won't happen. I have a problem. A very serious gambling addiction. I guess I always tried to play down how bad my addiction was but if I'm really honest I have spent so much more than I can afford, I have even done money transfers on credit cards to pay for it, I have had sick days from work just to play, I spent many of nights until the early hours gambling, I lie, I hide that I'm gambling, I've even played during work.Â
I have self excluded before but always used a family members details or start playing again once my exclusion was over because even with self exclusion I always knew I would go back to it but not anymore. I feel sick right now. I don't know how I will get over how much money I have lost over the years but right now marks the start of my gambling free life.Â
I never want to feel like this again. I know I can get financially stable in the next few months but I don't want to feel like this anymore. I have downloaded an app that helps recovery in gambling with cbt sessions (not sure if I can name it). I'm trying to focus on the positives of stopping even finding out what I like to do in my free time as before it was gamble every spare second.Â
If anyone has any tips on how to stop the dread of what I have lost, that would be really helpful.Â
Welcome ensue. All I can say outside of all the usual types of blocks treatments and financial controls is that as they say in zen teaching the past no longer exists when you truly realise this then combined with building hope for the future and thus living in a new now we can make amends with ourselves family and our friends Â
 My main problem was high risk share investment I spent a lifetime and a life’s money on a highly volatile market only to finally arrive here the main thing is to treat yourself well diet wise exercise and be social helping others is great for well being Â
 start now no delays
Hi is there anyway you can share the app you used would be very helpfulÂ
@7svi9bhk3p recoverme app, its what led me to this forum in their help section.
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