I've had a lapse this evening, and now feel rock bottom once again, I've never felt like this before and totally hate my life.
I'd managed to do a month off gambling untill today, and i feel worse than before. I've made plans for this month which I'm now going to have to cancel. I simply can't be trusted with money.
I hate what this has done to me, and i simply don't know what to do anymore.
Hi there
Most people on here have had a relapse or two.
Myself included, dark thoughts are hard to cope with when you are rock bottom.
Speak to someone who you can trust about how you are feeling or get help any way you can.
You have fought this for a month you can do it again. If you give up on giving up the gambling wins. Think of how you are feeling now and the next time you think off gambling remind yourself of this horrid feeling and use it as a deterrent.
Stay strong will check on you in the morning.
Good Morning,
I just wanted to check on you this morning and see if you are ok?
Hi NeedHelp25,
A warm welcome to you on this Forum.
It sounds like you are experiencing very difficult feelings following your relapse yesterday. It can be very hard to go through this, but recovery is a learning curve.
You say that you cannot trust yourself with money. Maybe you can find a way of cutting yourself off access to money for a while. You have already done very well for a month and you can continue on this path.
When you feel really low and suicidal, the Samaritans are very good to talk to. Their helpline is 08457 90 90 90.
You can also contact our advice services to talk about strategies which can help you manage your recovery from here on. Our HelpLine is 0808 8020 133 and the internet Netline in http://secure.gamcare.org.uk/netline/
I hope that you have a good morning.
Kind wishes
Gabriele
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