So here I am.... New to this forum I have got myself in such a pickle ? sad ? I gambled my wages not sure of an exact amount and now dealing with the reprocutionsÂ
I last gambled on the 8th Oct 2019
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My reasons for gambling are dealing with the death of a parent believing at the time that they say its okay to do it in my sleep of sound mind on the 9th I realised how ridiculous I have been and am now dealing with the consequences of my actions.
First step telling my boyfriend last time I gambled around mothers day he told me he would leave me.
So far he has stuck with me I have told him everything and he is being really helpful in trying to support me financially and emotionallyÂ
I have since spoke to gamcare
I have spoken to stepchange for advice with gambling debts
Put a gamban on devices and have seeker therapy blocked all emails contacted my bank who were really helpfulÂ
But next step is to sort out mortgage hopefully they will be helpful too.Â
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I had been using PayPal to gamble and just had emails today to say payments have been rejected by bank super scared and feeling sick and ashamed.Â
Dear @takenafirststep ,
Welcome to the Forum and thank you for sharing your story with us.
The death of a parent is a very traumatic event and is a very common trigger for gambling. Have you thought of seeking any professional bereavement counselling? https://www.cruse.org.uk/ or you can call them on 0808 808 1677
You are taking positive steps by talking to us & StepChange and having Gamban in place. I am so pleased your boyfriend is supporting you on your journey to recovery.
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Please feel free to contact the helpline any time for support, we are available for 24 hours a day.
Keep posting and sharing your progress.
All the very best
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You're lucky you still have your boyfriend 🙂 my gambling has taken more than just money. My wife and kids couldn't allow me in the house because of this addiction. The lying begging stealing went to another level. Disgraceful behavior all down to my actions. ShockingÂ
I am so lucky I still can't believe he has stuck around let alone try to help out financially for my actions. Still a long journey ahead but so pleased he's stuck with me so far.Â
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I'm so sorry about your wife and kids how are you finding your journey now?Â
My journey is horrible! Very hard and i hate myself so much words can not describe. Im a broken man due to my actions. Awful addiction so it is.Â
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