I have been gambling in secret on and off for the past year. I've won some big amounts then immediately put it back in over the coming weeks. I will then try and win the money back to get that rush feeling back again. I feel terrible after doing what I've done and it makes me feel low that I've let myself and my family down. I addressed an issue with online gambling during the first lock down and have put a gamban block on. However my problem is the machines in the bookmakers. I need help just forgetting that they exist and to forget the big wins I've had.Â
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I just want to add I hadn't been into a book makers for 4 weeks until I had a very stressful day. This prompted me to withdraw £100 and just gamble it away in search of a good feeling. However the complete opposite happened. The money was gone and the feeling of emptyness hit with a dark cloud coming over me.Â
Get yourself self excluded from the local Booker makers as soon as possible, you did so well to do 4 weeks and I can only assume pay day came and you had the itch to do it again.
you can push through this again and get away from gambling, stay strong lst1uk
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@dave101 Hey and thanks for the reply.
It was on impulse. I felt if I could get a quick positive relief it would improve my mood.
My wife was furious I spent it gambling as she knows I have an addictive personality. She is upset about me gambling as I came clean to her six weeks ago and is upset I've done it again.Â
Thanks again
Putting barriers in place is best to help stop @lst1uk is best. Have you ever gone too a gamblers anonymous physical meeting? They help a lot more than the gamcare website imo. I hope there is one close to you.
It is a seesaw. You get to much of one thing it will give you more of the other on the way down. Too much winnings more pain depression coming down. To much pain depression more gambling getting back up and so on. The only way to have peace is for the tipping of that seesaw to stop and level out. You get that from 30 days of being clean. That is the average time your brain needs to settle the dopamine kicks and the serotonin bursts.
Is 30 days.
If you always have this picture clear in your mind. You can guide yourself back to some balance.
I wish you well
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I can so much identify with your post. In the past I have done and thought the same things. At this point I'm trying to stay away from gambling altogether and one thing that has helped me is to say to myself: what would a non gambler do with their money? They don't throw it away on gambling- they save it, or buy something nice. I'm trying to alter my mind to start thinking of myself as a non gambler and when I have the urges to get a little excitement I think Is it worth it? to lose my money in search of a possible mini thrill?. I just think that a person who doesn't gamble knows how to enjoy life on its own merits and I'm trying to do that now.
Hi I can relate to your post I agree you should exclude from the betting shop u did well to go 30 days I'm on day 2 and finding it very hard I get the same feelings of guilt wen I lose everything I think gambling anonymous is a good Idea o too have been asked if would b willing to go so I mite do it's tough this addiction is good you have blocked from the online ones and admitting u have a problem is first step in long journey it took me years to relose I had a problem I'm on day 2 and struggling but trying to keep head strong I think blocking from everywhere is best thing I wish you the bestÂ
Thanks for all the replys guys.
I will try and think going forward what would a non gambler do in my situation. I'm lucky as I've not gambled into any debt and my bills and mortgage are always paid. I provide for my family however anything I have spare I just want to blow it. I used to save so well beforeÂ
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