First time posting, long time lurker.
After I spent all of our bill money at Christmas I stopped. Until March.
I was doing so well, or so I thought. Then a friend mentioned about a new casino website where she had won a nice amount for hardly anything and thought I'd give it ago. Thought I was in control. And yes I did win, nearly 2000 to be exact on slots.
It was lovely, the buzz I got was so much better than anything before and I did actually put the money to good use, paid off the last 200 quid owed on our tv, treated my daughter and husband, got her all geared up for school swimming that's upcoming, treated her to a few days out and paid a few bills and treated myself.
Being a stay at home mum it felt nice it was actually MY money thay treated us. After all this I had about 600 left over and thought why not carry on, I'm on a roll!!
Had a few other wins, 400 at the weekend was my last win. It hit my PayPal this morning. I now had 50 left of it. I'm disgusted in myself- why couldn't I just walk away. I've literally done 350 in less than 24 hours and now left with 50.
I've not talked to my husband over this and I've kept really private over it all but I did tell my mum at Christmas when I needed help with bills. I can't tell her I've fallen again and disappoint her.
Sitting here feeling sick, me and hubby are away the weekend and I could have made it a nicer experience if I'd just controlled my greed.
But I've done it before and I will do it again. Now it's time to self exclude for a bunch of new sites I searched for and signed up to. Wish me luck. X
Hi Killer,
I can relate to your story, so many times I have won a nice amount, and I’d spending the money in my head as I’m still pressing the spin button! If I think about the money ive won, that I then rebet, I’d be in a really comfortable position! However, if I think about all the money I have deposited and lost I’d be in a much much better position!!
It’s a mixture of greed and that feeling of winning, but that feeling is very expensive, because even if we were to win £10,000 or £100,000 we’d be looking for our next fix, and it will need to be bigger than the one before. We can’t win, because we can’t stop.
I’d urge you to get your blocks in place, and to own up to those you love, it’s not easy, but you need their support to get through this. I’m on day 126 (ish), and it’s been hard, some days are worse than others, but it’s possible I promise.
Best of luck,
Hi KillerQueen.
Me also, can relate. I'm a sports betting addict, Ive had huge wins and losses. When I first started to gamble on football in would be a £5 here, £10 there. But over the course of 2 years or so it would be £25-£100 stake with no thoughtsa at all at what I was doing.
My advice is to focus on other things in life, wether it be any kind of hobbies or just seeing more friends and family. I havn't placed a bet today, and I'm doing a diary on here. Its my first day clean.
All the best,
Hi KQ - Get an online block then this will help with that temptation 🙂
Sammy x
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