Trying to stop

I don't know how long it would take me toget there... I love with my mum who's able to pay all the bills, I have bad credit and can't get loans anymore and I'm not a family guy.. it's not hard not to gamble when I have no money, but as soon as I do I can't help myself..
Maybe you're right and I just need to lose more, I'm not sure, I just want things to change.

Thanks for your support bambi

Hi onepunchjmoo hope you are well and still gf . It is really hard but you have to want to quit. I cannot give too much advice only been gf 66 days but just reading the stories on here snd blocking all sites has helped me . I really hated the wsy gambling changed me you dong see it until you stop . Try taking each day at a time maybe give someone your money so you cant spend it. All the best im sure you will find a way to quit this evil habit . All the best Bambi x

You're right, I don't think I want to quit except after I lose and then it fades away. Every day I do free games that win me bonuses and then I gamble.. I'm in need of money and I have no job and no one will hire me because I've basically worked everywhere and then quit when I lost my wages.

Hi onepunchjamoo yes that is a big problem i was the same as you at first chased my loses and i will admit even enjoyed it sometimes then it overtook everything its all i could think about started spending every penny even my bill money which i would never have done thats when i realised i had a problem . I hate asking anyone for anything i like people to think im ok and responsible which started to change . I didnt want to spend time with friends and family as i was selfish it was my time on my game . I will say this i wasnt happy in the end just miserable and worried but im much happier now nearly back to my old self . What did you do before gambling onepunch maybe find something you enjoyed before all this . You need to keep yourself busy dont even log on for those free bonus's i know its hard but just try one day without even logging in see how you feel . Bambi

I think gambling only takes over my life when I'm on a big winning streak, otherwise I just do what I've done for years, chill and watch films and YouTube videos, I'm not very social or anything, I just like staying in with my girlfriend and watching things, playing games or going cinema and I do all that, gambling just changes my mood or means I might go town and buy some things. It's really hard not to log in for free things when I real need the money right now, I'm not working, unable to find work and people need money.. I think I'm slowly trying a bit harder to stop or at least manage my gambling ISH.. I don't know, I'm just trying not to make things worse my applying for loans or selling things that aren't mine so I'm just happy I haven't done anything like that yet. I feel the same about asking for help, that's the thing, when I win I can give people money instead of asking for it and I can afford to do things my way. I could probably keep myself busier though, I've signed up to dowhite collar boxing so when that starts I'll be busy training 🙂 thanks Bambi

Done the same s**t, went town to extend buy back on something at cash converters by selling what little I have then lose the money then borrowed ВЈ15 from my girlfriend and lost it then £10 from a mate and lost it. If he didn't give me until Monday I'd of ended up committing assault and theft. I don't think it'll be long until I'm in prison again because even though it's clear I have a problem punishing me is more important than helping me. I just don't give a s**t about anything right now to be honest, I'm fed up and unhappy, my life is a joke, I'm not where I should be at all and I just make s**t worse all the time.

Hi onepunchjamoo so sorry to hear your having a rough time right now . You know you say you dont give a xxxx but i bet deep down you do thats why we are all here in the same position . Your addiction is bad especially if you think its worth going to prison for its not worth it . You can do better than this you can improve your life you can be a better person . All you have to do is stop and stop gambling for good you need to want to stop . If you do you will be happy you will have money in you pocket and you will not have that regret every morning you wake up . I know you said its hard to find a job why not do something totally different which you havent done . You need a fresh start something that makes you happy makes you look forward and not back . Take care of yourself Bambi

I can't even get a s**t job let alone one like that makes me happy. The way I see money now because of gambling makes it so hard to be happy with any job I'm in, it just seems tedious working 40 hours to make what I can make on one spin.. as well as losing all that free time and struggling to keep up with things, I just hate how things are and how people are expected to work to just scrape by doing overtime to keep up with bills or so you're barely able to treat yourself. I have no interest in living a normal life, I know I sound ungrateful and like I think I'm the last Scion or something but I just want to feel secure and be able to relax and j need loads of money to feel that way. I think my attitude is definitely hindering me amongst other things, I know how I sound but I can't help how I feel.

I do understand its not easy when you cannot get a job but i think you have to realise gambling is not going give you that life style. The house always takes the money back . Working a normal job can be rubbish like you say puting all your money on bills but sadley that is life . I know you have lost alot of money and had wins from it but your losing yourself to it . So many people have chased that big win on spins and it never happens. You need to stop thinking like that and learn to hate it as it taking everything from you. Bambi

Just lost £20 my mum gave me to pay my cineworld card. If I was working or had any kind of income I wouldn't give a f**k but I have nothing and still need money for things and can't even get a f*****G job. I'm so P****d off I literally can't be bothered to interact with anyone or leave my house for like a couple of weeks now.

I sympathise with your plight I really do, however, you probably want life to be quicker because that is what you are conditioned to feel, thats what gaming does....a constant state of agitation. If you start to curb or stop your gambling you will see that 'normal' life is just as fast in its own way and that big win you're waiting for, I've had those and I can tell you from experience that it solved nothing, I just spent it all back because that is what we do.

Stick with Gamcare and self-exclude yourself where ever you can and you will see things more clearly, I promise.

All the best

Deezzee

I half agree with you about the big win because my goals require so much money that if I won ВЈ20,000 it would be nice but it's not enough to satisfy me, I want enough money to buy a home and to still have money, I got over £40,000 from an accident I was in and lost most of it so I know large amounts of money won't help me stop unless they're REALLY large. Which kind of makes me think I should just hammer the lotto lol. Life does move very slowly and it's so hard to have a life alongside work because there's only so many hours in the day and I like to keep up to date with certain things daily but I have a girlfriend and she has a daughter and they need some of my time too and it's all just so overwhelming to be honest I really don't get how people live normal lives working loads don't have children and a partner and social lives and that, I don't really have a social life and I'm unemployed and I still struggle to get the right balance.

You'vee definitely made me think so thanks

Dont get sucked in again mate you are better than this. Your GF and family dont want treating they just want you to be happy, healthy and in a good place and that is something you can never achieve if you continue to gamble.

Our true worth is not measured by the money we have or don't have.

Good luck on your journey.

Sammy x

I completely agree with you,but it's the world we live in.. people want that for you when they look at the bigger picture but in day to day life people want help either the and food shops and to be taken out.. money makes life so much easier trust me, when I can go town and do food shops and treat people and pay a bill the vibes are just amazing

just feeling really down and there's nothing I can do to change it right now.

Deep down I know gambling isn't the answer

You wrote these things and these

It doesn't sound like I want to stop I know but I do because it's ruining my life and relationships and work prospects, soon I'll be left with no options.

I don't want to put myself in a position where I'm desperate because I don't know what I'll do and if I go prison I'll probably lose my girlfriend.

Listen to the gut feeling that says deep down I know gambling is not the answer.

Thinking of you and wishing you well.

Sammy