Week later and i still can't get over loss!?

Sorry to hear your pain, it isn't easy to pick yourself up from the dark cloud so well done for the measure's you've put in so far. GamStop a good start to prevent further gambling however I'd encourage you to put every block possible on all your Bank apps and any land based casinos.

I had a 10 year gamble free streak which came to an end in 2018, it's taken me until now to get me life back and start liking myself again, I want to keep this feeling so I encourage you to push on and take each day at a time. 

@oranje01 Really appreciate your words. Also well done for being able to getting your life back on track again! I will contact bank and ask them to do this. Yesterday I went into town with my partner as it is her father's birthday this week. Walking in and out of shops looking at all the items that I could of brought with all the money I squandered really made me feel sick. It's quite a new relationship 4months and last week Saturday when I had this loss I had to tell her. Our money is separate so it didn't have any financial affect on her, but I knew that I had to tell her anyway as I now had gone from the guy who would pay for 75% of stuff meals etc to not being able to do anything intil I put this right. I've also told my friends and my parents as I don't want to keep things from them like I did before and fall to the bottom. I don't know how I managed to scrape a wage last week as my head was so far up my a**e. Last night I slept from 7pm till now as I write this. I'm really struggling and dread next week working. I can't find the strength to go to the gym which I know will help. My girlfriend has been amazing though. Hoping it gets easier through the weeks. Hope your enjoying the weekend.

Hi

I to went back to gambling many times over.

One question I was sked after my break out was what did it cost you.

Then I was told if it was just money it was a cheap lesson.

Each time going back to my addiction was an indicator that I had not resolved my emotional triggers.

I am a non religious person and understand that any person can find a healthy life if they invest lots of time and effort in to their recovery.

The recovery is not another obsession it is a healing process of learning how to heal our hurt inner child.

My emotional triggers were pains not healed, fears not reduced or faced, my unreasonabale expectations of people life and situations, another emotional trigger was loneliness and boredom.

Am I daily writing down my healthy needs.

Am I daily writing down my healthy wants.

Am I daily writing down my healthy goals.

No one could stop me gambling.

No one could stop me lying.

No one could stop me procrastinating.

No one could stop me lying to my self.

What am I willing to do to become a much healthier person.

What am I willing to do to become healed and whole.

What am I willing to do become more self sufficient with in myself.

How many unhealthy habits am I willing to exchange in to healthy habits.

How much do I value myu self today.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

Thanks for the kind words Rise4Good. I understand what you are going through as I've been there too. I recall the day my grandmother passed away and I didn't have any money to support the family with funeral expenses as I spent all of my wages on gambling. To this day I use that guilt as a motivational reminder to avoid that ever happening again. I can't undo the past but I can control the future...