Hi everybody, hope you are all doing well and being positive.
So today is my 15th day gamble free, it's been a whirlwind of emotions as I have had to deal with the loss of my relationship in the middle of it all but that's a different story although it being related to gambling in a way. But anyway moving on from that, today is my 15th day gamble free and today I finally came clean to my parents after struggling to admit to them my problems that I have been having with gambling it now feels like a huge weight has been shifted off my shoulders and by admitting it to them I feel like I can now make more positive steps forward and can continue to fight my self back to feeling more normal. In the last 2 weeks my mental state has definitely improved it is still not fully back to normal but 100% has improved I will carry on doing what I've been doing to regain my life back. I've had so much support over the last couple of weeks which has obviously helped me I couldn't have done it on my own like I have tried to for so long. I have still continued to watch the football which has been strange not gambling on it but I have enjoyed it more than ever not worrying about my bets like I always used to so that's a positive part of it.
Today I have also a plan to start my workout which is another thing I have used to help take my mind away from everything.
Here's to the future and staying clean. Much love everybody x
Hi Adam. I’m so pleased to read you are at 15 days and also that you have told your parents. It’s a really really important step in recovery and you should be proud of yourself. Keep us updated and keep going !!
Hi Adam,
Fair play telling your parents, that's a massive step. I know that was the hardest part of my recovery. My partner knew, some of my friends knew, but I couldn't bring myself to tell my parents. I pleaded with those around me to let me tell them in a years time so that I could say something like "this was a problem in the past and look where I am now" sort of thing. I wanted it to be retrospective rather than in the moment.
Basically in summary I was doing what I always did during my out of control period, I was being a coward and not taking responsibility for my actions. I knew my parents would be devastated and I just didn't have the balls to tell them. Thankfully my partner insisted that I tell them and I picked up the courage to do it. It was as bad as I expected. My Mam was devastated, my Dad so disappointed. I only learned a few days later how bad they took it. My Dad said my Mam spent two days in bed crying. For the next few weeks I thought it was stupid that I told them and that they would never look at me the same again. But thankfully after time things did get easier. Slowly I saw a change in them and some trust returned. That was almost 20 months ago and to be honest, things are great now.
It can be s**t (really s**t) at the time when you have to tell friends and family but take it from me that time is a really great healer, if you make the effort, they'll see that and support you and be there for you when you need them. The early stages you can get through on will power alone, but you'll need support from friends and family during your recovery, so it's great that you've already told you parents and they're on your side now.
Wishing you the best of luck with everything.
Happy
Hi Adam,
Well done on a great start. Don't worry, I used to bet on every sport I watched and at first it was strange not having that pressure and sick thrill of the wager looming over the outcome. I can assure you, as the months pass, you'll eventually lose the connection with gambling and enjoy it for what it is.
Go well!
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