Fruits of the devil and last night...

Hi

One of my emotional triggers were fears.

Before my recovery I did not value my self or other people.

In time I got to respect my self and other people.

At one time I had a 2 ound cancer growth in my right arm.

I knew that in 3 months I would have an operation to remove that growth.

Was I going to live in fear for the 3 months up to the time of my operation.

To reduce my fear was I willing to accept the very worst that could happen.

I could lose my arm, I could lose the use of my arm, I could have died as a result of the operation.

I decided to put all my trust in to the 3 surgeons that were going to do the operation work on me.

On the day of my operation I was fully relaxed yet sadly my wife and son were not that comfortable.

With my fears what is the very worst that can happen.

Will living in my fears help me or other people.

Living with highlevels of fears leads to a state of panick.

When ever I went in to panick mode I could not think things out clearly.

I found using the telphone list and meeting with people helped me settle down and reduced my fears.

Living in a state of panick is very unhealthy for me.

Having idle time was very unhealthy for me.

I got in to the healthy habit of writing down my lists of needs and wants on daily basis.

One Saturday morning my wife asked me how I was feeling, I was honest and told her that I was very panicky.

She told me to get my jacket on as we were going out.

I asked her where and she said just get out.

We did go out and that day found a ten bowling alley, we had some games and my panick melted away.

After that day we went ten bowling every Saturday after that day also with my son.

After that day I no longer felt panicky on Saturdays, instead I looked forward to Saturdays.

Living in fear was not healthy for me.

Pains in my life caused fears in me that I did not understand.

Now today I do not live in fear.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

If you want to gamble you can make any excuse for it.

I gambled because I was bored

I gambled because I was really happy

i gambled because I was really sad

i gambled because of unwell ness 

etc etc etc the list goes on.

work on knowing your triggers, put barriers in place. Get distracted in a book or some bs news article that makes you angry and takes your mind off the wheel of the devil.

just sharing perspective and thoughts

The other dave

not from Beckenham