Hi everyone
So, when am I going to see the financial benefits of stopping gambling. I'm 70 days today and striving to reach 100. I'm lucky I stopped in time so I didn't ruin Christmas for my family!! Im trying so hard to undo the last 13 years, and because I'm not seeing immediate results it ends in cravings for the devil's wheel.Â
Last night was soooo hard. I know why I gambled and I know my triggers. Unfortunately I can't escape my triggers. One of them is germs. When a member of my family is poorly it sets off a massive feeling in me, the first proper wave I've had..it was awful. I was sobbing like a baby because I didn't have my outlet, my crutch. So I had to face these uncomfortable feelings head on. But guess what... Here I am! The feeling has passed and I'm still standing. This is a huge win for me today.Â
Recovery was never going to be easy I know that. But I didn't think it would be this hard either.. I'm going to have a battle forever. I will never become complacent in thinking I'm "cured".
For today, I'm stood here, and won another day
If you want to gamble you can make any excuse for it.
I gambled because I was bored
I gambled because I was really happy
i gambled because I was really sad
i gambled because of unwell nessÂ
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etc etc etc the list goes on.
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work on knowing your triggers, put barriers in place. Get distracted in a book or some bs news article that makes you angry and takes your mind off the wheel of the devil.
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just sharing perspective and thoughts
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The other dave
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not from Beckenham
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