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Tensers
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i made a thread a year ago or more but i just gambled more and more after however i go to a point where i stopped when i met a girl (broke up after 7months) she helped me it was painful i still didnt r eally stop i just did it less and then if i did do it id lose atleast couple thousands at once so i ended up with zero anyway but the pain was unreal cus i felt so bad for her i somewhat stopped recently and i felt more pain in life but atleast i was trying  now im back at it i just completely think life is pointless. I have done many drugs + smoking + drinking and never ever even want to do it again my self control is completely fine but only with gambling i lose my self completely im really not sure what to do im kind of starting to like the feel because it makes me feel like im nothing it completely breaks me the reason i dont mind this is because it pushes me closer to suicide and suicide is the only thing that i think could help so in a way im pushing my self towards that more  ive been gambling since im 12 and now im 17 i want to learn how to stop not avoid gambling because in the future ill just do it again when im older i want to train my self to stop

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Posted : 22nd December 2020 7:05 pm
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i made a thread a year ago or more but i just gambled more and more after however i go to a point where i stopped when i met a girl (broke up after 7months) she helped me it was painful i still didnt r eally stop i just did it less and then if i did do it id lose atleast couple thousands at once so i ended up with zero anyway but the pain was unreal cus i felt so bad for her i somewhat stopped recently and i felt more pain in life but atleast i was trying  now im back at it i just completely think life is pointless. I have done many drugs + smoking + drinking and never ever even want to do it again my self control is completely fine but only with gambling i lose my self completely im really not sure what to do im kind of starting to like the feel because it makes me feel like im nothing it completely breaks me the reason i dont mind this is because it pushes me closer to suicide and suicide is the only thing that i think could help so in a way im pushing my self towards that more  ive been gambling since im 12 and now im 17 i want to learn how to stop not avoid gambling because in the future ill just do it again when im older i want to train my self to stop

Well, son the way forward now is to do practical things like picking up the phone and talk to some of the brilliant people here. They can give you some guidance on where to go next. Suicide is not an option son it is an escape. You also say that you want to learn how to stop in the future and tells me that you want to get some real help. It is here to be had. The counsellors here are great the chat and the helpline is a good start. You may need to escalate that too at some point but at least you can let the experts tell you where to turn to first. Take small practical steps and that will then turn to bigger leaps when you start feeling better and if you need anything from people here in the forum we are right behind you.

Be strong have faith. Never give up because someday you will be helping someone just like you in a similar situation and you will have the tools to do that.

Best

C

 

 
Posted : 22nd December 2020 7:48 pm
Tensers
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will call/livechat with someone today im just hoping someone else can give a story on how they stopped and what they feel afterwards because im not happy with life even when i dont gamble.

 
Posted : 22nd December 2020 7:59 pm
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will call/livechat with someone today im just hoping someone else can give a story on how they stopped and what they feel afterwards because im not happy with life even when i dont gamble.

Everyone's story is different son. I would recommend you to pick up the phone and call the hotline here and talk to someone. Sometimes that human voice will be much better than any text in a chat. Give it a chance and call them today. I am confident that you will see a big difference, 0808 8020 133

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C

 
Posted : 22nd December 2020 9:08 pm
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Dear @tensers

Thank you for sharing your experiences and I’m so sorry to read the affects that gambling has caused you.

I am also concerned to read that you feel that your gambling is pushing you towards ending your life and that you think that life is pointless.

I want to reassure you that there is help out there for you, this might all seem very raw for you right now but there is hope that you can stop gambling and to get control back as you have with other aspects of your life.

Because this seems such a difficult time for you, I would encourage you call us, and we will talk to you about how we can help. We are here 24/7 on the helpline 0808 8020 133 or use the netline if you would prefer that.

Please also talk to your GP about how you are feeling, it is so important that you look after yourself and speak to those who can help, and if you ever feel that you would cause yourself any harm then get don’t wait for your doctor, call 999.

Best wishes

Jo

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Posted : 22nd December 2020 9:14 pm

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