Hello 🙂
I am new here and found this forum by researching gambling addiction. I decided to join just to share experiences with other gamblers and see how you guys have managed to stay clean from it and what helps.
I am going to be 22 this year and have been gambling for relatively short time like 3 years. However gambling has taken it's toll on me for these 3 years. Started innocently, betting a couple of $ on football and even though i did start losing at the beggining something just clicked with me and gambling and it's been my favourite getaway for the past couple of years.
However i for the past year i started feeling like gambling is becoming a problem for me, because i found myself thinking constantly about it and every moment that i had free i would just think about gambling. A lot of people pulled away from me because i'd constantly talk about gambling and what happened at the casino but that was the only exciting thing in my life, everything else was just work and every day b******t.
A couple of weeks i made a big hit and won a large sum on the roulette at the casino but "suprise,suprise" i have very little of that left on me... Literally blew the whole lot in 2 days of playing and i really do have a problem and more sure than ever that i do. Every sane person would keep that money and buy some nice things where i've probably spent 1k on me and the rest gone back to the casino... I just sit at home and thinking that no person in their right mind would waste that much money like that.
But i guess that's gambling for ya.. I am so used to P*****g money away that i cannot even say that i feel that bad for it anymore... I used get really upset when i lose big but i am so numb to that feeling that i am more angry about losing the game to the casino rather than P*****g away thousands on a game.
I am now a bit scared to play as well because after these wins i no longer can play for low stakes as they just do not satisfy me, I go in there and throw $200-300 a spin on numbers on the roulette which is outright dangerous for a person like me who can absolutely not afford to lose that much money. However i just don't see my life without gambling though, i love going to the casino just to getaway from the stupid boring life... The same way i feel bad about losing money on gambling is how i feel about living a f*****g 9-5 meaningless life getting paid f**k all with no prospects of living better any time soon... Gambling life is miserable life at the end of the day but the typical boring adult life is b******t as well... At least when i go into the casino i see my mates and get excited.. If i go home from work i am just bored out of my mind and i am LOST!!!
I am sure most people who gamble do it to escape the dull reality we live in but i just don't know how you guys keep away ? What do you do in your spare time ? You quit gambling and then what ? Work, home, eat,s**t,sleep ? ? I am absolutely lost in my own mind.. I know that i need to quit gambling as it's draining my finances and it's complete insanity but on the other hand i just cannot imagine not having my little getaway after just another bad day at the office. Any suggestions would be welcome 🙂
hi Gamba, Thanks for sharing, I've used Gamban (www.gamban.com - blocking software) to help me stop gambling, - worked well for me, then i took up exercise (jogging and home fitness), fishing and DIY projects. Its working well for me. It takes great effort to change your own habits, but the first step is identifying your issue. second step planning it, third step; implementation. With determination you can do it.
Hello Gamba.
Reading your post reminds me of a younger me, i had the same feelings as your expressing but let me tell you, i wish i stopped gambling then,i really do. Fast forward 10 years, im now 25k in debt, havent got a penny saved,cant get anything on credit,become a liar and could potentially lose my job next week through company credit card mis-use.
You are still only young and its great that you have decided to open up on this forum, i wish i did this back in the day. Maybe then someone might of came along and saved me from self destruction.
Honestly, just try and stop. your already at the stage of wagering big amounts to win bigger amounts, its only going to get worse for you bro. We never end up winning! and even if we do we always end up throwing it back at them.
Im now 10 days clean and i havent had any urge due to gamble because im so scarednow of losing my job, that would be the biggest loss i would ever have.
Get all the blocks in place, thats what i have done. ive also spoke to my GP and GAMCARE. Also spoke to people about it aswell, it helps!
I hope you can try and kick this horrible habbit and in 10 years time your life is on track and your living good.
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