I can see clearly now the rain has gone

What a lovely post! I have won money but lost so many thousands over the last 12 years, with gaps in between.  Like you, I am so sensible in most aspects of my life and can budget so well down to every last penny!  My friends just would be shocked if they knew how much I have spent and lost on gambling.  Over just a couple of months, I lost 27k of my own money after selling my property - leaving me just lucky enough to be able to purchase my current home with no mortgage- that's the sensible side of me but how embarrassing/soul destroying that was for me at the time.

I have such a loving and kind family and friends yet only one of my brothers and my sister know about all of the above.  They both offered me support financially when I needed it but I do believe that this was because they knew how hard I have worked over the years and brought my son up single handedly.

May you continue to see clearly as the days, works, months pass.  Take care.

Pink Lady.

@j5a6meyr4z hi Pink Lady. It's good to hear your story too and as you say, a lot of similarities with what we have both experienced. I'm glad to hear you were able to purchase your home and I hope you can move away from these difficult times too. 

I told my wife about it last night. I was dreading it and it wasn't an easy conversation but I do almost feel relieved now because although she is upset about it, I know in my head I took a big step yesterday and time will now be a healer.

Likewise, I hope you can continue to see clearly too in the weeks, months and years to come. 

@08uy7jeoah Hi, reading your post today has been so overwhelming as I can really relate to everything you have wrote , I feel so alone in all of this it’s crippling me to bits. 

I haven’t told my partner I have a real addiction, I too won a lot of money and lost it all then used a credit card to chase the loss and now I’m in debt because I couldn’t control myself 

I took the first step today and called GamCare who were amazing and helped relieve a bit of anxiety in me, this page has also helped seeing I’m not alone

i reallt do hope there are brighter days ahead and we can see more clearly

Thanks again for sharing 

Thank you.

@fy5xit6zgm hi Angela. I'm sorry to hear you have experienced similar and I can totally relate to the feelings of loneliness with it all. 

The fact we have both opened up on here and also used GamCare gives me confidence we can put this behind us. For me it's going to be about obsessing with healthy things in life again (I did this in Covid), things like exercise, reading and cooking all help and I'm sure you will have similar things that could maybe help you alongside GamCare? 

Good luck to you moving forward, there will be better days ahead.