Hi... Don't know what to say really. I've developed a huge problem this year and it's gotten me into a world of trouble. I've been a regular gambler since I was 18, never enough to be a problem and affect my life. Beginning of this year I started chasing a loss and now I'm financially ruined. I had actually started to claw my way back over the past few weeks through hard work 13/15 hour days. But now I've just done it again and I honestly feel dead inside. I'm depressed, more depressed than I ever knew I could be. And I can't see a way back from it. I feel ill. I just want to make it all go away.
Does anyone out there know how to deal with this? I can't see a way through this at the moment.
thanks
J
No I stopped the poker. I'm done with it. I don't even feel like playing anymore. But I lost so much that I am weak to feeling the temptation to try and win it back.
I don't know how I make that go away. I need to stop completely I know that, but I can't see how I get my life on track. I feel il
It's the temptation to try and use gambling as a source to recoup the losses that I struggle with. The issue is that it wouldn't matter if I won 500,000. It still wouldn't be enough and I'd probably gamble it all away again. I have no control. Otherwise in my life I have a lot of things going for me, but this is ruining my life
Yeh. I get that entirely. What's so messed up is I understand all of this, I know that I'll never win, and I hate the whole betting industry, I think it's criminal. I have started to, for the first time in my life, feel like an addict. I hate myself. Pure hatred. I don't want other people to like me because I feel guilty. I have experienced feelings I never knew I could, depression, anger, self loathing etc.
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