Morning
I relapsed after 2 months clean. I did a hard stop for 2 months but this created other problems and made me have excessive anxiety and come off work. I then decided to gamble to "make" money which was stupid and blew my own money and then some money from my family's joint account. I feel disgusting for putting my family at risk, being selfish and being a dirty gambling addict. I put betfilter back on my phone and it still remains on my desktop and selfexcluded again from sites. I want this problem to go away...I hate this. I hate the fact I'm stealing from my family to fund my addiction, I feel like I'm out of control, I loss chased every loss and made it worse. I'm already off sick which is financially ruining me, I feel I'm at a dead end. My wife will probably leave me, she's aware of what's gone on but I think this is one time to many. I am so disgusted and disappointed with myself.
Morning,
I feel you this morning. I relapsed last night also and it's killing me this morning (more details on my post 'I relapsed hard'.
I to want a need rid of this addiction and quickly but there is no quick fix sadly.
I'm gutted for you as I know how you feel right now and it's horrendous.
Like you I feel dirty.
It can only get better from here.
Check in later with how your doing!
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