About a week ago I gambled again online and won, then continued a few times more and continually won.
Last night though I lost probably double what I had won and feel sick inside, struggled to get a good night's sleep and have to face work today feeling like this.
I just don't understand why I feel the need to chase a small loss but I do, I wish I didn't feel like this or have these urges, it needs to stop!
Will I ever just not gamble, I would like to think so.
I need to get myself in a comfortable position and hand over my cards etc to my wife, but I can't tell her what I've done this time and she would likely leave me.
Arrghhh!
The thing is and I don't mean this at all harshly but if you continue to gamble your wife might leave you anyway?
It's surprising how a partner can react when we are honest which in itself takes courage.
Of course you have to accept ALL criticism, suspicion, lack of trust etc. but a relationship can be re-built on a foundation of honesty and a realistic approach to not gambling with all the support and resources available believe me.
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