The wild ride...Is it over?

Posted by: @bm241pin5d

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I'm coming up to my first year gamble free...Will I go back, I don't think so! 

 

...I've spent over 10 years telling myself that I'll stop and finally after multiple relapses I'm confident I won't be going back. 

I purchased a Gamban subscription almost a year ago and its locked me out of gambling sites. I also took up talking therapy to discuss my addiction and help to put me on the right path...And almost 1 year on I can say the outlook is bright.

I don't set unrealistic expectations...I keep it in the day and don't exceed that! 

 

I'm not perfect and can't guarantee I won't ever gamble again - But just for today I won't gamble!

Dear Goneandfree23

Well done on your achievement and commitment, taking it day by day has worked for you as you approach one year gamble free.

Keep going!

Best wishes

Fiona 

Forum admin 

Hi

The most important thing to remember is that going back to gambling would make my life more painful and fears would take over my life once more.

I am a non religious person.

The addiction just indicated that I had certain emotional triggers.

Because I had certain emotional triggers I would try and escape facing my feelings and emotions.

For me to sit on my hands doing nothing was very hard work.

Getting my big a*s in to gear and becoming more productive made my life much healthier.

You get to say to your self that today was a good productive day.

Writing down my needs my wants and my gaols really improved my life.

Once healthy thing I did was to give up smoking.

I worked out that during my self abussive smoking habits over twenty years cost me over 74,000 minimum.

That was jst smoking only.

I now understand that 74,000 would have been a nice deposit of a new home.

If I knew how much gambling cost me in total might have given me a heart attack.

I have given up drinking coffee and tea for over 30 years.

I have given up and reduced my feeling of being ashamed of how unhealthy I use to be.

I have the choice to heal the hurt inner child in me.

I do not want or need to gamble today.

I do not want or need to lie to my self or other people today.

I do not want or need to live as an out cast today.

Healing love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham