WTF...can I nail this...?

one word is key...yet! you do not overspend yet! you are not in debt yet! rest assured carry on and you will be both of those, enough to put you off?

I agree with the comments of BNB. You'll soon be in trouble. Get the blocks on the gambling sites with K9 download (free) and get someone you can trust to set the password (they to keep it secret from you).

Seek counselling via Gamcare. If you can't speak to them. Try keeping busy with hobbies or speak to relatives.

Keep loooking at this Forum and posting or offering advice.

You could see your GP and discuss your situation.

Take Care

I imagine 99% of us started out not overspending on gambling, not being in debt and being 100% honest but it tends not to stay that way unfortunately.

Yes gambling may make you feel better temporarily but like taking drugs or alcohol it is a ultimately a soulless and empty experience. All gamblers feel agitated when they can't get their fix, our brain is used to getting it the feelings it invokes.

You lived without gambling before and can do so again.

I do not think I made myself clear enough... I have been gambling now for over six years... I have never been in debt... I am still and always will be one hundred percent Honest... There is no question of that ever changing...!!! My issues are complex to say the least ( psychological ) ... I have complex issues settling or accepting my current plan of action... So I end up tweaking and re tweaking my current plan... This causes me extra stress and pressures which drives me to become more and more agitated psychologically.... I am gaining a slightly improved situation through spacing out my g times... I have found that there is a three day period where gradually over each resulting day the agitation becomes less ... And if I leave the g behind me for at least a week I regain confidence and purpose... Enough to settle for a limited routine... But then the tweaking starts again.... To be ultra honest with you all and myself... I set myself limits but I find it extremely difficult to keep to the limits ( money wise amounts ) ... I end up spending a little more than the limit I had preset myself... Just remember my spending doesn't spiral out of control... I just find myself spending a little more than the limit I had set myself... I think this may be the reason for the added agitations.... Because I am almost never able to keep to the exact amount of my preset limit... Any help with this in mind.. I wish to control my spending on gambling better... Although I have been improving over time... Maybe I am trying to be too defined with my limits... But I dont have any other way to look at my over spend other than me failing to keep exactly to my preset limit... I really do wish to continue gambling... But I do not know how to view my failings in an acceptable light... If anyone can help me with words of wisdom in this vein of thought... I'm all ears.... I think it may have something to do with me learning to accept that I may never or only sometimes be able to adhere to my exact preset limit... And hence looking at the times that I do manage to achieve my limit exactly as a bonus or positive... And concentrate on the positives attached to the achievements of keeping within my limit.... But I dont know how to view on a personal level my failure to achieve precision as far as staying within my limit... I think I am repeating myself... Okay...!!!

Hi again Rnd(),

You have mentioned that you have a nervous illness. Later you mention "complex issues". I feel you need to discuss these issues with a trained professional. If I were in your position I would go down that route.

I was a CG and have had to put strong measures in place to prevent gambling from taking place at all. My previous advice to you was based on the same premise of "gambling prevention".

I wish you well.

I have edited my last comment please read....

You really need to speak to your medical professional if ur already receiving psychological help. The problem u explain is what all of us compulsive gamblers are guilty of. We overspend and find ways of doing this. We feel anxious and the gap between our gambling gets shorter. There is NO way to control compulsive gambling. Once addicted, we can't.try.and.do it in moderation. Its not in us. Your lucky although u haven't admitted it, you half recognise u have a problem just by being here. U need to read people's posts and diaries on here, u need to recognise u have a problem, and you need to stop all forms of gambling now before u do end up in debt and deceit x

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It has been a while since my last post.... I thank you all... However I am still not in debt and my gambling brings me mixed emotions especially when I am going through a losing sequence or cycle... I suppose this is a normal reaction to the scales dipping in favour of losing... I can only post on here to use this site as a sounding board for my grief all be it temporary.... I know that a break is called for from my g ... It is just a matter of time to see the way forward again clearly.... I find having a periodical break from my g is very reviving to my soul... However much I try to cling on to the emotions of the last win I know and understand that the win cycle is just as limited as the lose cycle.... And most times I need a break from both.... I believe I am not a compulsive addicted or problem gambler... Only that from the changing of the cycles comes unrest and leaves a bitter taste psychologically speaking for a short interlude of time... I thank you for any kind words... Remember there are all different reasons for people having a hard time when gambling.... We do not all... Every single one of us have to completely stop immediately... Just like looking at an image it can be viewed by some as purely black and white whereas others view the same image as graduations of grays or shades of colours...

I'm confused, having a break from gambling gives you a relief & yet you maintain that for you, continuing is the way forwards?!? You are gambling to escape what else is going on, it doesn't fix your problems, it just masks them! You need to explore other avenues to manage these pains! Whether you want to admit you are a CG or not, not being able to control your limits would suggest that you have a problem & I imagine if you take the test it will say you are! You cannot hang on to the euphoria of a win because it is false, sooner or later, you will give every penny back & more but in any case, gambling is not just about the money!

You don't need the extra stress of gambling on top of an illness, have you tried other computer games? Your life doesn't have to be a constant battle, setting & resetting limits if you find a different outlet!

You need help, it is out there, take it & be kind to you by giving gambling a miss - ODAAT

Maybe the black & white image that those that are seeing a spectrum of colours in is being viewed by them through rose tinted glasses? Maybe the obviously black & white image is something they find uncomfortable to view & so seek to paint a prettier picture?

The g doesn't care if you've labeled a CG upon yourself... What matters is the fact that the g is an entire army of boffins or super brained teams of people who have been paid to construct... One layer at a time an ongoing all powerful enigma of conundrum formulas that eventually suck you in to its way of doing things... Where greed takes the eventual first and only place in the individuals way of living... Gradually it peels away your levels of control until Wham Bang your caught in its web... The only way to escape its clutches is to start regaining your life and take control gradually back until.... I believe if you can remember the very first reason you went for that first gamble that can go a long way to resolving the thoughts that can start or try to start you backwards again... For me it was Boredom... God grant me... My heart warmed with your kind words and wisdom....

Maybe its just time to drop the mumbo jumbo stuff and find a way to stop gambling instead - and also find something else to do at the same time.

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