Well Congrats on day 11 and way to go. Gotta say I was enjoying a few of them cold ones myself yesterday. Kinda feels good just to kick back and not have to stress over money or anything else for that matter. LOL keep it up.
Well, made it to the end of the obligatory week of madness that precedes any time off work. Feels good to be able to chill.
I got the bank statement through today that showed the transactions of my recent slip. It is a sobering read but it strengthens my resolve to think that might be the last statement I ever have to hide. I have managed three weeks already and a couple of weeks abroad with no possibility of gambling will ensure I get to six. I won't pretend I am not having urges but I am handling them. Life feels good right now. Long may it continue.
So holiday is over and it is time to rejoin the real world. Feels good to type Day 42; I know I am getting there.
Reaching a dangerous time for me though and not just because of all the sport currently on tv. My bank balance is looking normal, I have hidden the offending bank statements and life is feeling comfortable. I know that is often the prelude to a lapse. I find it more difficult to resist my triggers when things feel comfortable. That said, I made it through a huge trial today when dealing with the couple of thousand emails received in my absence. I was staggered by the number of gambling sites both old and new who reached out to me during my two week holiday. Free bets, welcome bonuses, free spins, we miss you messages and free cash in your account. I was suckered in by that last one just recently and won't make that mistake again. I have deleted each and every one unopened. They have not generated urges only an increased sense of injustice and outrage at the way the gambling industry is allowed to operate.
I'm not playing any more.
Hi No Crisis
42 days is showing how strong you are in fighting this awful addiction
Keep strong and keep going
how wonderful feeling comfortable must feel after devastation and despair
You can do it you ARE doing it
Suzanne x
Hi no crisis read your post on challenge can relate to what your saying . Great achievement 42 days . Stay strong hitthefanx
Thanks for the posts, I appreciate anyone who takes the time to stop by my diary.
Back at work now so the chilled, holiday feeling is already fading into the distance. Determined not to let that interfere with recovery. First big milestone number of 50 days is within striking distance and I am still feeling strong.
Have a good, gamble free Friday.
Trickier day today. I have thought about gambling a few times in an "I could just have a wee shot" frame of mind. It amuses me that I can still have those thoughts despite all the problems and lapses I have had in the past. I know there is no such thing as a fun gamble for me and yet I still have a voice in my head that says it will be okay this time. I am happy to say I am getting better at ignoring that voice.
Hi no crisis
Very well done on ignoring those voices think I cannot win because I cannot stop that helps and using the triangle
Keep going keep strong and keep positive
Best wishes
Suzanne xx
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