DeterminedDan wrote:
I've put that particular name for the title of my diary simply because every time I update it, I can remind myself of this particular moment....
I'm sat in my car in town, having just put £200 into a FOBT!
Money that I have, but only as a result of somebody borrowing me that money because they thought I had other outstanding bills to pay.
I feel terrible about everything. I don't want any sympathy, but neither do I want berating further. I'm down enough as it is.
I really want to kick this habit into touch. No good is coming from it and everything just seems a blur.
I think far more clearly when I'm not gambling.
I was going to wait a few days/weeks to post on here to accumulate some gamble free days, but then realised that I need the support and comfort of people on here.
I realise this has to stop sooner rather than later.
It's long been a problem in my life. I used to be able to gamble for pleasure. But something switched in my head about 5 years ago that made me start gambling for wins rather than entertainment. I really wish I could control my gambling becase when I could, I used to love it. Saturdays used to be so much fun.
But those 'Saturdays' have been every day (at least when I've been gambling...) and it's not fun anymore.
The time has come to STOP!
I have to make sure I make time every day to log onto here to update not only my diary but others too (once I'm in a position to start offering advice).
I want to make it to 100 days and beyond. My best is 34 days. Big challenge ahead but I'm going to give it everything.
Help and advice is always much appreciated. Thank you.
Moorey - A compulsive gambler.
Remember this mate , no more of this for me and u in 2019
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