18TH JAN 2013 - Time to let go.

Thank you Stu - thinking and praying for you.

Take care.

Lady Feb.x

Just realised that 11 months ago today - 18TH JAN was when I finally realised I had reached rock bottom. Eleven months later, I have abstained apart from a few hours of gambling were I was overcome by "a moment of madness".

I am still proud of myself on this achievement and this helps me to stay focused and determined to improve my life financially and emotionally without the use of gambling.

Even though I had that moment of madness on 18th August, I still hold the above date close to my heart also.

I will continue to put goals in place for the new year and hopefully tick them off along the way.

Take care all.

Feb.

Hey Feb,

11 months is great achievement!!! Soon be a year, two...and forever!!:-)

You can do it, no question about it

Keep it up and take care!!

Proud of you 😉

S x

Thank you so much Sandra for your support.

Feb.

Thank you Julie - I try my best!!

WEEK 17

Pay day today!! Off to buy the remainder of my Christmas presents tomorrow - with my hard earned cash!! Pay day always was a big trigger for me and still can be so I really need to be strong and resilient around this time and remind myself of all the horrific negative consequences that gambling can bring about. "SURF THE URGE" I say and those cravings to gamble will come crashing down and fade away!

I know I still do not have anywhere near as much money to spend on myself as I used to but while I am not resorting to gambling, I do know I have peace of mind that all of my bills are going to be paid, I can feed myself, I have some money to myself and that things are gradually getting better month by month. I need to focus again on my mini goals in the new year to help keep me on track. I have slacked in that department the past few months.

Take care all.

Feb - "Jingling along" "The Bright Side of the Road"

Thans Julie for your lovely comments.

Feb.

Hi Feb,

Thanx for visiting:-)

Yep, sometimes my head start going 200 miles an hour so was looking for smthere to vent it to look back later.did help:-)

And look at you lady!!! What a achievement!!! Well done and keep steering ur way through to the wider road.

Some little goals would help indeed 🙂

Keep it up darling

Mery Xmas if i won't catch u again xx

S x

WEEK 18

Posting early hours as I am going to be so busy tomorrow cleaning, decorating my beautiful tree which was delivered and is smelling my house out beautifully!! Then I will be wrapping the remainder of my Christmas presents.

Had really strong urges throughout yesterday/evening!! I am just hoping that this is because it was pay day for me and this has always been a huge trigger. Also, another trigger for me is when I feel financially under pressure. Kept coming on here, doing loads of positive self talk and looked over my bank statement to the last time I gambled, to remind myself of the devastation I created just hours after being paid and in a matter of just a few hours!!

I reflect back on yesterday and remind myself that I have managed to purchase all my presents with my hard earned money, I have bought my lovely tree, ready to decorate, I have paid half of my bills already and after calculating how much money I will have left to live on until next pay day once all my bills have been paid, things don't look too bad actually.

I am hoping that these urges will subside now that pay day has come and gone - I'm sure they will. I am so used to not gambling for 30 odd days at a time so surely I can keep "fighting the fight" when pay day arrives, as I have done on all but one occasion since arriving here. Anyway, feeling better about it already.

Looking forward to relaxing tomorrow evening and getting into the Christmas spirit and watching my tree twinkling away, now that I have finished work until 3rd Jan! (might even have a sneaky Bailey's)!!

Take care all and fight those urges if you have any - just like me!!

Feb - Relieved to still be on "The Bright Side of the Road".

Thanks Julie - in that case, I might even go for a double Bailey's!!

Look after yourself.

Feb.x

Thanks again for your supportive message. We've done well over the last year, so need to greatly appreciate that. It's scary to think back when I've been so hopelessly lost in gambling, now I can kinda sigh with relief at being out of that chain of addiction. Thanks again for your support over the last year 🙂

Merry Christmas and happy new year to you, Feb.

All the best

Alex

Hi Feb

Lovely to hear from you. Of course I remember you - I think Jan 15th was our big day. I read that you had a slip but you've kept it as that, so I still see that day as the big one for us.

I wish you all the best for the new year. You certainly deserve it - you give a lot of support.

All the best.x

Hi Feb,

Coming by to wish you Merry Xmas and happy New Year! All the best darling, you are such a great person and huge inspiration. Thank you very much for all your support in my time being here, i really appreciate it.

Keep it up darling!! Wishing that New year will bring more joy, happiness and peace to you and your loved ones 🙂

Take care

Sandra x

Thank you Sandra and season's greetings to you also.

Feb.

Feb .... Such a good end to the year for you, have a great Christmas and a wonderful wonderful 2014 ... Thank you for your support during 2013 xx