2021 MY AMBLE TOWARDS THE NOT GAMBLE

Having trouble sleeping so thought I'd come on here.  In the group chat there were some contrasting views but that's what makes the forum great there's an abundance of different views opinions.  I often comes across as too positive on here, I'm a happy person in real life and am chirpy at work and positive which has always helped in sales roles but often when I'm down I don't put this across which can't help me and people mistake meas being happy when I'm not...  I have had some very down moments thru the time I've been on here but I've usually just not posted thru this time (not saying this is the best option its just what I've seemed to do.

I won't apologise for the advice I give, it won't help some or all but I'm trying to help and put across what I have found has really helped me.

I think I may take a break from the group chat room for a while as I have helped as much as I can and feel I'm just reiterating past \same advice over and over and my positive attitude isn't what people on there want or need....

I'll keep posting on my diary as its my space and like having a diary to put across what I'm striving to do in my life.

Hi adam,

 As you saidveryone has different views in group chat and different ways work for different people. You do whats right for you as its obviously working because your doing great in recovery. I hope its nothing i said as i did mention positivity but it wasnt in regards to anything you had said so i hope you didnt assume it was.

Positivity is good. I just find it hard if someones at a really early stage and is over positive with advice and thinks you can just switch off the feelings or get over the past easily. But again everyones views and ways of coping are different and theres no right or wrong. It be a shame for you to not attend as you are a well valued member

Lou x

Hi Adam try sleep on it, hopefully things will look better tomorrow. I'm a happy positive person normally gambling destroyed it but it's all coming back now. You keep on being you, I've read most of your diary over the months I've been on here and I've found it very inspiring. You've done great, changed your life, you have every right to be happy and positive about that !!

Hi lou and charlie boy thanks for posting.  I'm a sensitive soul and take things to heart too much i know this.  My mum says i often think about things over and over and others would just think about it for a couple of seconds and dismiss it.  

I do enjoy what i get out of chat room over milestones and christmas so i will continue to use it.  

I will remain positive and keep going strong thru this year.   My aim is to be trimmer, leaner and stronger physically by september.  Im actually half way thru now and 55% thru my weight loss so just above target.  I know weight loss will get harder the more i lose but i will gain muscles and with that weight so its all a plus.

I have already walked 36.8kilometres this week so will have a rest day tomo and then get back on it on monday.

All the best Adam xx

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Another week down, had a good couple of weeks at work, both my managers were off and i managed to get everything done and done some overtime (good for forty pounds extra).

Went to a friends house yesturday, they were drinking, smoking and gambling but i managed to have a good time whilst not doing any of these vices.

Then went to my sisters today, gave my niece a doll for her birthday, played football with my nephews then came back.  Now listening to spurs.

Back to work tomo .... quite a tiring weekend, will get an early night tonight i think.

500 DAYS GAMBLE FREE HORRAY.....

Like to thank my many fellow friends on here users and mods youve all helped soo much............

500 days !!! Adam i am so pleased for you, youve made the changes and have worked so hard !

Well done you should be so proud  !!

Lou xx 

Dear @adam123,

Huge congratulations to you from all of us Admins and Mods on your 500 gamble-free days!

I know recovery didn't come easy for you and you had to work extra hard to get here after many attempts.

You are a real inspiration!

Treat yourself to something nice and be very very proud of yourself, you have done so well.

Keep going, keep sharing and keep thriving.

All the very best,

Eva

Forum Admin

Hi Adam,

What can I say ?. Beacon of hope for desperate people coming here for the first time, shining example of what can be achieved without giving in to addiction, compassionate, honest & caring towards others. Living proof that picking yourself up through the bad times when recovery isn't going well, never ending determination. RESPECT mate & well done, proud to know you.

Warmest Congratulations

Al

Nice going! Keep up the good work

Day at a time

S&B xx

Well done Adam. Not just with gambling you've massively changed all areas of your life. I hope you realise how much you inspire others

A wonderful achievement Adam. 

Congratulations on a job well done. 

Aum ?

wow, reading these back has really brightened my  mood tonight. .  I'm thoroughly grateful for being here with you guys it's inspiring me to be the best i can......

Had a lovely day today, went to visit an old friend, saw his new house, sat in the sun, then went to the beach, then listened to some tunes by a fire pit, just what the doctor ordered.

Tomo im ging to relax and watch the footy, then back to work monday.

Ive made some more plans, its great to be able to do things with friends.

I also spoke openly with him about what skitsophrenia had put me thru thru the years and  i feel it has helped to open up and get another opinion.

I feel i will move into the flat this year, it will be daunting at first but i think its the best move and there will be a lot of positives to come from it.

All the best adam xxx

Always great to read your updates and progress adam

Lou x