I've decided to start another post.
My last post was titled Still feeling crappy even on positive days i'd post on this title is a reminder of the crappy days. So I'm starting a new post on a day where I'm feeling quite good and positive hoping it will have a reverse effect. The crappy days when I post on this I will see this as a reminder.
Ok so today and yesterday I'm been feeling generally good had a couple of low mood points today but on the whole for today I've generally been in a good mood. I'm focussing on finding my old routine of getting back in the gym eating properly and sleeping properly. After getting back in the gym yesterday for 2 weeks I instantly felt better.
Currently setting up a plan of action to tackle my debt with Step Change who have been great so that will soon be one less thing for me to stress about.
Right now i'm focussing on being being a good partner again, work and recovering from gambling. I've Neglected my partner for the last 4 months or so I haven't been caring, loving or even listening as I've was spending most of my time gambling. I've got myself in some serious debt but the amount of debt wouldn't hurt or affect me half as much if I was to lose my partner to my selfish gambling ways. My partner acknowledges my problem and has offered support in anyway possible but has promised if I'm not truthful amount my gambling from here on out we may not be together.
I've managed a year gamble free prior to this relapse around April/may time this year Stupidly thinking i could take a year out and suddenly have control of the amount I'd spend gambling. This time round I have told a few key people around me for extra support and due to start attending counselling again.
Random
Best of luck with everything, briefly spoke to you in one of the chats
A year gamble free is amazing. You know you can do it again.
No idea how I would handle things after being a year gamble free.
Cheers all.
I felt after a year gamble free I deserved a treat and that treat was to gamble which led to my relapse. Convinced I would be able to control the amount of time and money I'd spend gamble seeing this year free of gambling as a cure almost. well that didn't work and now I'm back again trying to recover.
All is well today though. Didn't get a great sleep last night but again I've been in a pretty good mood today and still gamble free.
My sleeping pattern is getting on my nerves now. Some nights sleeping through with no hiccups others waking up early hours not able to sleep again. Intermittently taking herbal sleep tablets to hopefully get some consistent sleep not working at the moment.
My only grumble at the moment though so Ill take it. Still gamble free
Evening random
Same as yourself I went a period without gambling and decided I was in control and its just spiralled out of control. Hope your sleeping pattern improved I know how lack of sleep can affect decision making.
Still Gamble free.
Sleeping a lot better with no aid as well also a plus.
Had to make my first payment to step change which hurt. I'm forever coming home to letters from the banks really annoying.
On the whole feeling positive lately things are getting better.
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