Just checking in. 67 days without gambling now.
Amazing! Well done!
Was reading your first post about being complacent after things are going well and that always seems to be my downfall.
Keep up the great work 🙂
Just thought I would put a longer post on here today. Last night I went through my online banking statements and made a list of all of the deposits I have made from my bank account over the last 8 years or so - and I was absolutely horrified at how much I have spent gambling. It really made me feel ashamed and embarrassed about my past habits - and I know one of the key things to me remaining gambling-free is to NEVER have access to a debit/credit card again. I did so much damage and didn't know when to stop - since giving up my debit card I have not gambled. I used to go for periods in the past without my card but then I became complacent and ordered a new card, thinking I could could control my spending, but rarely was I able to go for long without falling into the same old habits.
I spoke to my partner in quite some depth this morning about my previous gambling habits and it was good (albeit painful) to talk honestly. My partner has been really supportive but does worry about me returning to gambling; when we met I had stopped gambling but I have gambled during our relationship (which he knows about).
69 days gambling free and much better off for it - just have so many regrets about my previous gambling.
77 days gambling-free!
80 days gambling free!
keep going Sully you are doing a great job! im only on day 2 but know i will soon be racking up the days and close to triple figures in no time!
Athena
Good work Sully. Keep going. Keep improving. All the best
82 days gambling free! I can't say I haven't thought about going into an arcade and just trying a fiver - but so far I have managed to resist. The other day I had a refund of some of the money I have gambled. I didn't feel happy, I felt really bad because I know it's only a small, small fraction of what I have spent in the past. However, I have given that money to my brother to look after and plan to spend it wisely - I'm investing some in a new business venture. So at least it is going to be used positively. I just really feel bad that I even gambled it to start with. My brother says I shouldn't be so hard on myself. But only I know the days, nights, thousands of pounds wasted through my addiction. I sound negative now so I will finish with a positive - 82 days gambling free, a week till pay day and I actually have money left in the bank plus lots of outings coming up (which I have already paid for). My DMP is going well and I am learning just how much I can't buy for my money, if I make positive choices. Good luck everyone else - I hope things are going well for you.
Just checking in - 83 days. Almost 12 weeks, which is almost 3 months...perhaps the longest I have managed in a row.
Having a break for a while, not sure that this is helping anymore.
Ok, so going to have to start a fresh.
I will start a new thread tomorrow as things have been difficult over the last couple of weeks.
Not really finding this diary keeping helps, so am going to get some proper 1:1 counselling to see if that works better.
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