There’s a glimmer of hope in the air,
And yet so close
To being plunged into total despair.
The money’s gone,
And it wasn’t fun,
And I should have walked away
For so long,
But now I feel strangely unburdened.
It’s an expensive lesson,
But some pay with their lives,
And I am still breathing,
And I feel more alive.
Money sucks the soul away,
Beneath the fleeting joy a win brings,
And somehow I forget,
Everything.
Somehow I forget,
EVERYTHING.
How can I wake up feeling happier,
With nothing to my name?
How can I feel less guilty,
By accepting all the blame?
Coming back from the brink,
So many times,
And now I’m definitely out.
I’m definitely out.
This is a new beginning.
Here’s to vanquishing my obsession with winning.
This is a new beginning,
And I don’t have to be winning…
Just singing.
Singing.
This is why I’m singing.
This is the end.
This is the beginning. X
Thank you for sharing this @Bob24. It is really great to see how you can express your journey so creatively, and gives a chance for others to reflect on the ideas you've raised.
It sounds like you are making a change and ready to have this new beginning. It takes a lot of courage and resilience to learn from the harms we experience and make the changes we want. You are not alone in this.
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All the best,
Fay
Hi Bob
For me my gambling was a very unhealthy self abuse habit.
I did not think I would have the courage to walk in to the recovery yet I did it.
It was a very wise thing to do.
Like many I was nto abale to stop gambling right away.
I was advised that going to meeting would help me give up my unhealthy habit of gambling.
Today I do not want or need to gamble.
For me to gamble was a very unhealthy habit.
In time I was abale to do so much more with my life.
Once I abstained from gambling I started to heal my pains.
Once I abstained from gambling I started to face and reduce my fears.
In time it was a daily decision just for today I will not gamble.
I understand that when I gambled it just made things much worse.
Gambling caused many fears in me it and huge despair.
The money was just the fuel for my addiction.
I became such aloner.
Gambling was not fun it was very painful,
It was elf abuse for so long,
But now I feel strangely unburdened.
Money was just the fuel for mya ddiction.
I use to feel so guilty and so ashamed now I have forgiven my self.
Healing in recovery is not about blame it is about healing from the pains of our past.
Recovery si about living amuch healthier life.
With out gambling I live amuch healthier life.
Healing and love to every one.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham
Thanks Fay - your words are greatly appreciated x
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