"No gambling today, no gambling tomorrow"
Sounds perfect to me!
GT
Hi! Congratulations. You are doing brilliantly. Stay strong. X
Another day of no gambling nearly over.
Mums down in a few hours so i know today will be a defo no gambling day.
My dark cloud is starting to lift and the mood is getting better but then i havent been christmas shopping on a saturday yet so that could change lol.
Stay Strong everyone
No gambling today No gambling tomorrow.x
Ps thankyou everyone for messages of support.
Just checking in, E40. I'm still reading, just not had anything to say recently.
Stay strong!
x
Another busy day at work but mood getting better as the days go on.
Today is the first day i havent spent most of the day fighting urges and thinking about gambling,which is a real step forward.
I just want this week over as i would have paid all my bills by scrapping the barrel then a weekend sorting out the house and putting up decorations and christmas tree as there will be no money for anything except food.Thankgod for value food lol.
Hi MM glad to see you back with us after your holiday i hope things get better for you soon ive also decided to look for a new job closer to home try and save petrol and childcare.
Stay Strong.x
Great to hear that the mood at work is getting better.
You do have to realise that everyone has their own stresses and worries just like us on here. I always wonder just how many other people I know at work has gambling worries in their family. I am pretty sure that there are some but I am not going to try and find out.
Normality is best.
GT
Another day gone another day of NO gambling roll on tomorrow all bills paid by the skin of my teeth.
Cant wait till saturday decorating house and tree with the kids LO is 21/2 just the right age to understand and get excited about christmas.
The smile that will put on his innocent little face makes everything worthwhile.
My kids are my heart and soul and to them i make the promise not to hit that deposit button again.
Stay Strong.x
Thanks Ade the support means a great deal to me.
Hope you had a good night out.
Didnt post yesterday as i woke up with the a**e and went to bed early feeling the same way.
Had some bank charges come out that i wasnt expecting so didnt get all my bills paid which really P***** me off so need to make up next week which puts my christmas shopping behind schedule but cant do anything about it so forward i march.
I find having the a**e a great way to fight any urges as i get to angry to want to give my hard earned cash to those t***s.
No chance of gambling this weekend at all as i have £26 to last the weekend.My mum holds my cards and for anyone trying to rid themselves of this addiction i really think giving up control of money is a great way to get a grip on things.I understand for those of you trying to do this on your own its not an option i have the greatest of respect for you but if you can do it.
No gambling today No gambling tomorrow.
Stay Strong.x
You can make £26 go a long way.
Just wondering what this a**e is in your previous posts...
GT
Another day nearly done and again No gambling.
I left my two boys 13 and 2 to decorate the christmas tree while i cooked dinner now im fighting a different urge the urge to straighten up and tidy.lol.
It looks like an explosion in a tinsel factory but they had a great time so i will leave it as it is for now until i cant fight the urge any longer h*r h*r.
Stay Strong.x
Hi Elizabeth... thanks for your support. Must admit i am also sitting thinking what is a**e. I presume its a r s e ... maybe am wrong. Anyway i think ive woken up with the a * s * this morning.. am cold and crotchity lol
Glad your boys enjoyed decorating the tree. Its nice watching kids get all excited about christmas isn't it. I think I stopped getting excited about it when i was about 8 and my mum started hoovering (or is it hovering) on exmas morning. I thought how can anybody do chores at christmas. Leave the tinsel explosion thats what i say. 🙂
As for the finances being tight you have my comiserations (dodgy speeling also).. it just takes a bit of time and careful budgetting and finances do get better. In fact I find that when i do make the effort to do a careful budget and stick to it.. my stress levels about money do come down. Anyways keep fighting the good fight.. S.A 🙂
Morning All
Thankyou Sa you are correct with the word i tryed to write it like that on GTs diary but it still got starred out.
Your right about the careful budgeting and i do right to the last penny but having 2 kids sometimes a spanner gets thrown in and i have to redo it but although christmas is just round the corner and as long as i have no illness or cut hours this month it should work out ok.
Cleaned house from top to bottom yesterday kitchen gets done today and it kept me busy all day and the gambling thoughts are really starting to be less frequent.
When i first started recovery all i could think about was gambling almost getting paranoid that i was missing out on that jackpot spin.Now im finally starting to retune my brain that im not missing out on anything and even if i did win it it wouldnt be as much as feed in over the years.There are more important things in my life than jackpot spins .
No gambling today No gambling tomorrow.
Stay Strong.x
Great post, Elizabeth!
Just think, all your careful budgeting skills that you are having to do right now will put you in good stead in the future when you are debt and completely gamble free.
That's something really positive that I am going to gain from this really challenging journey.
And your house will always look good!
Have a good day.
GT
Thanks ADE & GT.
There is an interesting post in overcoming gambling that asks the question is recovery for ever.
I have posted a reply and feel that some people will reach the point of the journey they are on where gambling just doesnt play a part in their life and dont need the blocks that are put in place at the start of recovery.Then there will be others who no matter what stage of recovery they are on will always need some sort of blocks or support.
I am only on the start of a long road but when i reach a certain point in that road i hope the gambling is part of my past and it dosent take center stage in my furture i wish to get to a stage where gambling dosent even cross my mind when i have spare cash or some sort of emotional upset.These are things i will learn how to deal with on my journey as i know my problems started with wanting to escape and then chaseing to pay back what i owed .
I have learnt a huge amount about myself since i started my diary at the beginning of oct.Some i already knew some was a shock to me and some i have been putting off dealing with for a while.
There are alot of big milestones going around today and some more due soon and i wish these people the best of luck for the new year ahead and thankyou for coming back onto the forum to share the great news and give us all some inspiration for what can be acheived.
Stay Strong.x
haven t posted to you before Elizabeth. Everyone is different when it comes to recovery. I still find these pages help my recovery even though i Dont post as much and im not far off a milestone myself. I consider myself only one bet away from disaster as i just know if i won i would get greedy and go back to my old ways. We cannot win cause we cannot stop was/is a very useful motto for these pages. Very well done on your recovery thus far,keep doing what your doing,its obviously working and Don forget its YOU that is the most important person on this diary. Best wishes believe in yourself you can do it 🙂
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