Afternoon diary.
Well back to work,very quiet as the rain is a falling and quite glad I am not still steaming!! next year I plan to see the whole fair, from the luxury of a caravan!! lol.
the boss wants to change things on the new menu again so tomorrow my day off will be a day of research and further forwarding of yet more drafts, I think he is wishing us an indian summer as he yearns to many light airy fairy dishes!!! bring on the stodge!!!
Well supper last night turned into a laze on the couch enjoying a quiet one and a chinese from a little lace that delivers and adds no msg!!! fantastic today woke sober lol the first for a few days and ready for a new bout of grind then a treat for my Sarah and myself a few nights break somewhere quiet and dog free!!! ( love him dearly but sometimes !!!Lol) then our hovis may get a suprise yesterday we put into adopt another whippet, a dog the spit of hovis 1 yrs old and very similar in looks so fingers crossed he may have a mate to enjoy life with.
So the end of my 34th week comes to a close,more balance brought to my life,money in the bank after all the bills are paid and all seems well ,lifes challenges are there for the taking and without the fog of the punt there to spoil it all forward I will step,taking all I can.
Tomorrow I pick up my newer faster push bike (still no helmet shiny LOL) and on I will go.
Duncs compulsive gambler NO BET TODAY.
Afternoon diary.
Well my day off turned into a three hr visit to work the eho paid us there annual visit, a time when all chefs feel totally ill at ease!! lol. Still they will re visit tomorrow to finish checking the paperwork and all looks good. I am taking a quick pit stop waiting for sarah to join me so we can do the shopping i was supposed to do five hrs ago!!
Still on the plus side we get to spend an hour of us time all be it in tesxco!!!!
the new bike is fantastic faster than a speeding bullet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so racing forward never back
duncs compulsive gambler NO BET today.
For sure tomorrow eho and all it will be better for it !!
Hello Duncan,
I have been here a little while (33 days gamble free to be precise) and just wanted to stop by and say well done on your recovery. I have made a bit of a dent in reading your diary and found that your situation is pretty similar to mine, 3 kids, lovely wife who we owe it all to, i even used to be a chef many many years ago!! People like you are serving as an inspiration to those of us who are starting our journeys, its tough going but it is something that i am slowly starting to find more rewarding each day. I applaud your hard work and determination duncan, i wish you all the success in the world with your recovery.
Keep stepping forward mate.
all the best
Mark
Hi Duncan
Well done for staying so focused....been reading your diary and you should be proud of yourself for being so strong!
Thanks for the support on my diary too
Forwards not back!
Jewels
HI duncs...
wondering if the environmental health lot have bedded in or if it was just for one day....
Hope you had a good shop today...was also restocking today but whizzed round in 5 mins...
Peddliing forwards ...never back ...unless your a uni cyclist..lol...Keep strong my friend...you are doing a fab job.
hugs
R and D xx
Hi Duncanmac,
I told you I would return with new moniker and diary. Well. here I am.
Had a quick browse through your diary. You should be proud of yourself. Stay strong, stay clean, my friend.
A>N.
Hi Duncs,
As always you pull out the positives of everything in your posts and my head is also starting to kick into that way of thinking all by itself. Why would we ever go back to the misery of gambling, continue pushing forward or speeding on that new super duper bike of yours.
An inspiration as always.
Blondie
Afternoon diary.
well what a difference a day makes!!!!
Today marks 34 weeks gamble free and what will be a day to celebrate a gamble free life is marred with a shade of darkness, for me I will charge through it toward the light.
today I terminated my employment and look for pastures new, why?? stability!!! From the day I walked in to the job I gave my all, changed the ethos of many people, all except the one that counted the owner. The last week going to work has been like walking into a bookmakers each day, a sense of impending doom, a feeling that how ever much i commit,give my all that I will walk away potless. Well yesterday I had a harsh lesson in buisiness which was the straw that broke this camels back. I got paid and last week took three days off,returning saturday to do a half day due to a lack of bookings. My payslip read three days work,two days holiday pay. I was told that this is how it is, and despite my countless 7 day weeks,they count for nothing and each time I take more than two days rest these will count as holiday pay. I was still yet to recieve a contract and guess foolishly have tried to formulate the best out if the situation, legally I now know this is theft and for a fella that has given his all, well I wont have it. No chance of a compromise my situation has become untenable.So with immediate affect I resigned, why because I today have a huge amount of self respect, know life is too short and will learn from this harsh mistake and march gamble free toward the light I know I earn each day I say NO BET today. So today day 238 gamble free I dust myself down gamcarers, get on the hunt for a job that will reward my efforts in a fair manner, I wont as before bury my efforts in a bookmakers, or chance my arm upon a scratchcard. No lottery dream, just a job which will pay my dues, reward the hard graft and give me Stability.
So yes today will be a celabration a toast to recovery and all it brings, there are bumps in my road,undulations to steer round but gamble free, my beautiful family by my side I am on course to succeed, wo betide the next person in my professional life who takes me for a fool, I evolve daily,yes grateful for opportunity and folk who see my misgivings and help me to learn from them but it has to be with a balance, so to end I stand stick in hand, my love my life,my heartbeat by my side no secrets just a team to be recconded with forward we step never back.
duncs compulsive gambler NO BET 238 days.
Yo,
What a day this is turning out to be!
Once again I find myself gasping . Think of myself as pretty intuitive , but boy oh boy never in a million years did I see that one coming .........
Not that you did not do the right thing , ......
Empty restaurant , complaints , well as the old saying goes you reap what you sow . Can not believe that you stayed over , ran the place to be treated so badly 🙁
You know mate I am soooooooo proud of you today ,more than I have ever been , days are good but actions now thats what recovery is all about .
Cause you showed such courage , you are dead right , you thought sod this I am worth more than this .
You know what I agree 100 % you are !
I have no doubt you will get to doing what you love and inspires you , quite quickly . Really wish I was looking for a chef lol
Today I doff my cap to you , cause when we were at it , we were down trodden , you today pulled apart the chains that bind you . ( read that post ) .....
Raising a glass , I say good for you .....
Shiny xxxxxx
Duncanmac,
Yes it is me. Inspired! I is pleased!!
No more serious today, had enough for one day. Thank you for the kind words. The feeling is...
one of laughter. Risk and reward my friend. I love to turn things on their head. I risk not to gamble. I know you get it!
Spot on Mr.Mac.
A>N. other.
Forgot to mention the reward, you guessed it!!
morning Diary.
well last time I was out of work I would have waited outside the nearest bookies and sat until I either lost what I had or won/lost/won till I broke even and then off to another bookies to try and beat the system!!! what system LOL and as for my family f**k em!! today I got up early walked the dog miles then the front garden all tidied and back to looking good,back garden and the veggies later, after I interview for a local hotel!! wow how the grape vine moves, CV out late yesterday,interview today!! I know I made the right choice yesterday for me and ultimatly my family, off to bank a cheque now (Complained about a pie i bought lol) and on way back home going to harvest a load of rhubarb from the outlaws were i planted it, scrub up and see what the interveiw brings hopefully a contract!!!!!
Duncs stepping forward never back!!!!
Afternoon Dunc.
Can i pass on my best wishes to you in search of a new job.
Well done on 238 days.
Things will work out for you i'm sure.
Take care,
gazza
Yo,
Not sure if you will get this in time , but good luck with your interview .
Was thinking you don't let the grass grow under those feet of yours do you lol
Jack, cv, interview in what less that 24 hours , wow .
Great it might be jack,cv, interview , new job in less than 24 hrs .
Although I know you will not take a job that's not right for you , which is the right way to go .
Keep us updated, cause you know how nosey I am.
Shiny xxxxxxxx
hey Duncs....
Well the change effect has gone viral....wow ...good on you for setting your stall outtt in what you will and wont accept....
Sometimes you just have to trust and go with it even though it feels scary....and literally as a door closes a big one opens....
Sending all my good vibes and thoughts to you and I truly truly hope this new place knows the quality amazingg professional chap they have in front of them and have you signing on the line.....
ALWAYS FORWARD...and never putting yourself in situations long term that will set you back.....
Hugs and love
R and D xxxx
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