Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

thanks for the post duncs.

36 weeks truly amazing. 🙂

Your posts never cease to amaze me, your commitment to your recovery inspire me and your humility and support you show on this site is admirable.

for that i thank you. Im proud to be part of the unity that is gamcare.

Blondie

hey Duncs.

Thank you for posting...Bloc party eh? ive heard of them. I shall think about you raving on the 9th...lol

Yes life is getting clearer after it looking a bit muddy and I feel like some progress has been made and I have a plan now..and goals for next year so my glass is looking half full now.

I am looking forward to London and job..total catapult out of my comfort zone but perhaps this is whats needed.

Your son sounds like he is set for stardom ...and I love that collective thing...lol

hoping work will be settled for you now Duncs and maybe a good run for both of us up to Xmas and beyond....

Just for today ....never back xx

R and D xxxxx ((((())))

Yo,

It appeared we are both sitting in front of a screen , typing away .

Cheers for your message , recon won't be long till you get back to the stoves . Till then I know you will enjoy the time you have with your Sarah, the kids Oh and Hovis . Think that's a great idea of adding Abstain and maintain to your sleeve . It takes time to get that recovery is soooooooo much more than not gambling .

Everyday my heart is filled with such joy that so many on here are getting that . You my dear dear friend are the pole bearer for that. At times I see posts were people are frustrated that talk about our lives as opposed to our addiction, as you know the two are intertwined , each one having such an impact on the other .

Anyways a bit of waffling going on there , mind you it's nice to have the time , and also share my thoughts over the garden fence (so to speak ) with my buddy .

Next week I will keep you abreast of my of dinning experience , hopefully their chef is as passionate about their trade as you are , cause then I know I will be in for some truly cullenary delights .

Shiny xxxxxxxx

Morning diary.

Well had a couple of hours to fill this morning and what better way to forefill them than spending valuble time here upon the forum which I use for the foundations for my life, my second half anyhow, the first half full of promise,devistated by one thing,the desire to gamble,the all consuming addiction that I let steal all but my existance.

today I feel so enriched on a daily basis by the things I used to let slide on by all for the futile chasing of a pipe dream that became so distorted by falling deeper into a routine of betting to make gains, winning and then further betting against the odds to make further gain,with the inevitable conclusion potless!!!

In recovery I find comfort in the simple things I suppose I used to take for granted and to end things I desire are still obtainable I just have to use what I have to secure them.

I used to think I never had enough, I was under valued by all in my minds eye and felt the need to constantly prove myself through the flashing of pound notes.

Today safe in the knowledge that this simply is not true,sometimes I know money is not the answer,the be all and end all of life. In the knowledge of this I do step forward,ok I lost the first half, it had me licked I accept that, but boy oh boy the second half gets better with each measured breathe I draw.

I do abstain and I will continue to maintain.

Recovery is a wonderfully forefilling thing,warts and all.

Thanks again gamcare, you give us a voice, a heart that beats so strong.

Duncs compulsive gambler NO BET today.

In unity duncs.!

Recovery is a wonderfully forefilling thing,warts and all.

That my friend was the second light bulb moment for me today on this site. Recovery for me has been about accepting my warts, I always hid them before now i dont care how big or ugly they are, they are there and they are part of me, I will learn to become beautiful from the inside by grabbing recovery by the short and curlies everyday and making the most of what is.

Blondie

Afternoon diary.

Something that always raises a smile when I need it is something one of the longest serving members of my Ga says to a new member if they have an answer to all the points put to them " I have been coming here over twenty years and am yet to see a fella come in and say help me I can't stop winning!!!!" We are all in the same boat, this addiction has no prejudice it takes all comers.

Always said with great humour but very apt.

No bet today.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hi Duncanmac

Thanks for the support was much appreciated

Like I av always said love reading ur diary so much positivity and no matter what comes ur way u take it in ur stride and make any negatives into positives and for that it inspires so many people in their own recoveries

Thanks again

Castle2

hiya Duncs

Thank you again my friend for identifying with me and especially in the realms of chucking cash at problems to make them go away..

Not only have i stunted my own growth and delayed my survival skills being matured...I have done this also for friends through guilt by "saving " them and not allowing them to also go through sometimes painful processes to become mature and survive in this world on their own efforts.

In AA they call it enabling...I have enabled people to stay stunted and not grow due to my desire to quick fix and take their pain away...right intention,lovely quality but not good for their growth as individuals to work it out themselves..in fact..it rendered them more dependant on me as I denied them the "process".

This is why I know my ex will go from strength to strength..as I would have sheltered him...deep down I knew this and given his age 11 years younger than me ...I think the best form of support was to go and let him grow.

Terminating my pregnancy was part of that deal I struck with myself as I knew one day i would have to give my partner up..for his own good,.

If he read this he would say "patronising b****"..but I trust and pray that in the long haul he will look back and see that it was right to not fight for us any more and go our separate ways.

From very different backgrounds he and i have similar things to learn ..and we could not have done it as a couple and would have remained stunted and lacked maturity'.

I really did do us a favour.

hugs

R and D xx

Dunc - just a quick hi-five. Something nice planned for the weekend?

J

Afternoon Diary.

Well had a productive day, using my time wisely until my job starts a week monday, My day started with the supposed collection of some cash owed for some work, to which I was pushed off to collect tomorrow, the cash was to pay a bill, So what did I do?

take what cash we had and full steam ahead to the nearest bookies to Win more than the money I was to get and pay the bill and have enough for a weekends dreams!!

NO NO NO not a cat in hells chance.

I rang the person who's bill was to be paid explained I will pay it tomorrow and all is well in my garden!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And why?

Because today I have a choice and that choice is I will not bet just for today, tomorrow will benifit from it emmensly.

Today once again I have been enlightened,mentally challenged and focused by this forum ( thanks kristoff, sorry for hi-jacking your diary!!)

I guess for me today recovery is all consuming, Why ? because I enjoy the benifits it befits me soo very much.

Off to walk the dog for a few well earnt miles and then home to cook my wonderfull family supper.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Compulsive gambler NO BET today.

Dunc,

Many thanks for your posts on my page.

Last night i did say that the gamcare forum has worked for me alongside GA-i even passed on your TIME-MONEY LOCATION advice-hope that was ok!

It's great advice which i keep to the fore everyday of my recovery.

Can i wish you and your family a lovely weekend.

Take care,

gazza

Hi Duncan,

Congratulations on ur new job 🙂

Ur posts of full of positivity, u r an inspiration 🙂

Have a gr8 wknd 🙂

alls good Duncs

Always forward and you are doing fab...

Looking out on my garden and its looking fab ...weeds being cleared making way for more flowers..

I am pulling those weeds up at their roots....

R and D xx

Jeez mate - you nearly had me there with that 'What did I do...' post. Made me laugh actually 2 x sentences later.

Keep smiling 😉

J

Hiya Dunc,

Just been having a good catch up on your diary and good to see things going so well. Well done on new job mate, always good to stay busy eh!!

Like your attitude to the shortfall in your money to pay the bill, i know that's always been my attitude when gambling, always want something for nothing!!

Stick with it Dunc, Life is so much better without gambling and you are doing fantastic.

All the best

Keith