Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

Im sure and hope everyting will be fine with ur ecg duncan.

Ur son sounds v talented and its great use are such a close family.

I know hard work never killed anyone but i think uv earned this last 9 months to slow down a bit now.

I get the impression u wud find it hard 2 sit down 4 more than 10 minutes try and relax mate your really doing this a day at a time u really are!

hey duncs

ditto..a quick over lunch and repost later

Easy Does It xx

R and D xx

Hi Duncs,

Well, your quest is truly courageous to me. You still are so upbeat which I humbly aspire too! And, which you should be... Dont beat yourself down too much too, you are a top guy (I do it myself, I hate myself too but hope that changes). I hope all goes well with the results, have all fingers and toes in the correct order for you (nice to put them too good use rather than in a gambling way).

Take it easy for today. Easy does it! And best of luck in finding a new friend for Hovis! I am sure you will be more excited than Hovis mind ...lol

Till tomorrow!

ps...I did'nt realise, sorry for stealing the 1000th post! 🙂

JP

Afternoon diary,

Had a great day thus far, had a clean up this morning then lazy lunch with the kids and sarah, then walked our hovis miles, leisurely over the top of the h#ll, with both his footballs, he loves to chase them round, one is a full size one, a sight to behold!!! Lol

Then home and he had a bath as he resembled a 1970's footballer lol covered in mud!!!

Now got one ear on the football, my beloved pompey whilst knocking up a cottage pie for supper.

The reason I write this post is to show myself the impact that abstaining from gambling has done, for me and my family, no sat fretting over the results, no shouting at my misfortune, no sweats over sneaking out to drown my sorrows in a fobt, were without doubt win or lose on the football I would have found myself stood feeding my addiction, the result always the same, home to pontificate more lies to cover more losses.

Today I can see what a life making an educated choice to just for today not give in to my tormentor.

I can even say that the x factor seems an entertaining prospect LOL.

Finally the 1000th post for me a fella who used to live a life on the fall of a number, today is insignificant, my wish would be simply this, that post counts just as much as all the others most importantly to my continued recovery and other folk here just the same.

Thanks for all your ongoing support

Duncs forward never back

Nice post D!

I totally agree, I even stepped back today and said to myself, hang on a minute? What I normally be doing now? I guess I should take time out more, I am not at your stage yet Duncs, but I will get there, I will fight to get my life back to how it used to be and your diary and others on here is my ticket.

Don't ever refrain from posting, atleast until I am cured!

Thank's for your support!

JP

Morning diary.

Been once again inspired by this forum, something I am extremely proud to be a part of.

I used to feel anxious at the familiar faces (names) not being on the first pages of the diaries, today I understand folk will come and go and importantly recovery is bespoke, tailored to each individual, what is important is the fact the door revolves, so today I thought about absent friends, I won't chase them for my end, to satisfy my needs, I will of course be here to enjoy the good times and offer my unconditionalsupport in the bad.

Today I salute you all gamcarers today let's make a footprint that suits us.

Duncs compulsive gambler No Bet today.

Here is to flagg's 2013 thread and a great turn out

hey Duncs

Good on ya...shows real growth there ..I also used to "worry" but its like anything in life some times its full on and other times its cruisey..

Think sometimes the thinking we have in early recovery is that if either side go off line for extended periods then you think something bads happened'.

Ironically on supporters i feel the opposite and when big gaps happen on that side I feel slightly jealous that life is back to normal whilst I still need the security of being here.

Always springing forwards...never back xx

R and D xx

Morning Duncs.

Thanks for your continued support.

Are you still going to your GA meetings?

I've going to as many as i can ,family and work permitting.

Hope you are having a nice weekend,

Cheers,

gazza

Morning Duncan,

Lol... I now totally understand your thread! Sorry not caught up with the news last day or so, too busy enjoying myself! Hehe

Well, if that is the case then you are right it does say it all. Well let's hope they show it sooner rather than later! Unless they find something else to replace it next week like the price of margerine in the supermarket these day's...

Have a good day Duncs,

JP

ah ha...found ya xx

R and D xx

Evening diary.

Rach I have not changed diaries, just felt so enraged by the bbc schedule I found myself justified to start it's own thread, I will make it my lifes work to have a rational voice heard regards compulsive gambling and it's addicts and those who also suffer, in general we are not a bad lot, would like that view heard.

Been back to the docs today, been referred to cardiology for further testsand monitoring.

Feeling better about things today, started to work through some stuff handed on by the honourable mr. I.b, it's fascinating so far.

Big congratulations to all who signed up to flaggs challenge , special praise to blondie and steve a massive well done.

Nine months gamble free tommorrow for me.

Duncs stepping forward never back

hey Duncs

I see now....thought id missed a diary change..lol

Heeey ...send me out with a sandwich board,' megaphone and double decker bus and i'll tell em what great folk you all are.!

keep on keeping on Duncs....and that ticker will sort itself out...time to de stress. xx

R and D

Hi Duncs,

Have been reading your posts.. just wanted to say how grateful I am to have you on my/our side. You're trully one of the good ones sir. I raise my glass of sparkling grape juice!!

joanxx

Hi Duncs,

Did i hear someone say 8months gamble free ? Why does that not surprise me. Massive well done duncs what an achievement.

Loved your seperate post re the no show on the bbc, I think gambling has such a stigma that goes hand in hand with it you would find that theres not many CG;s who would want to speak out about it but until that voice is heard people wont understand.

Im happy to stand at your side and bang the drum, i have no shame about my addiction just a better understanding of the whys and a desire to help other people who are also affected.

How are those patter of tiny paws coming along ? And the whistle training went so well with woody, i went on u tube and within an hour he had got it, blow whislte treat, blow whistle treat repeat repeat repeat, give them something really nice when your first doing it, chicken, liver .. Now he is the model dog, comes running back as soon as i blow.. Lets see how long it lasts lol.

take care

Blondie

Morning Diary.

9 months today since I had a punt, 23/01/2012 was the last day I let this addiction steal, money,time and my self worth, Today I feel like a new man, I count my blessings that my heartbeat,my best friend the reason I want to live my Sarah is still by my side,my kids are all supportive,my Mum still guides me when I need a pick up. I have learnt so much about my self,my resolve to fix things,calmly to see the best in everything in life grows with each gamble free day, Do I still get the urge Yes,but I have the triangle there,my self respect and a love for life,the odds are simply stacked in my favour, I want to spread this good fortune with all,I have a stick in my hand and will make it my lifes work to beat compulsive gambling a day at a time,make tomorrow a better one for me and mine.

I do accept I cannot change my past but today feel like I am living in harmony with an addiction that knows no bounds and will take it all if you let it.

so this morning I looked in the mirror and smiled,why ?? Because just for today I will live!! gamble free and a better bloke for it.

To my wife, thankyou for being my best friend,my eternal love to you, too boot ditto to my kids and my Ma and her Ed, you are all top draw.

And a massive thanks to gamcare and Ga you showed me my lights guide. something I will respect and never forget, Thanks to all of you, you know who you are,and just for today Smiler(wherever you are my thoughts go to you.) I will "Abstain and Maintain"

Duncs Stepping forward never back.