Aegretudo Egretudo !

Again, don't be too hard on yourself DP. Maybe consider reading your own diary again. I just read the first page of your thread again and it's a powerful reminder of why we're here. Beating yourself up won't help. Is there any way to block access to that money you won?

ok back to the diary again, Carla money taken out of the account and in a safe place ! so i know my weaknesses and what i have to do or not do maybe the better phrase ! i have to eliminate the possibilty of drinking too much with friends who are big gamblers, it only draws me in when i am out with them ! not good !!! so today is day 1 but i will beat this somehow, thanks for everyones support, very much appreciated. Dark Place

Good that that the money is put away. I am joining at day 1 again.

ok day 2 and no scares so far, will take 1 day at a time but weary of my weakness with drinking & gambling, have a good day everyone. Dark Place

Just checking in, DP. You doing alright?

Worried about you and missing you DP. Please come back.

DP,

Hope you are OK pal, and that you find a moment to come back here and re-assure your friends.

D123

Using his own words he's dogmeat at the moment 🙁

(((( Dark Place))))

Here for you...

So very happy to hear from you and looking forward to more posts in the near future. Enjoy your kids and put on those boxing gloves for your return!

So a really hectic 9 or 10 days, of course the best thing being so busy and abroad has meant my chances to be thinking about gambling have been limited ! so I am now racking up the days and to be honest im feeling really good ! i can only take 1 day at a time because gambling has been so big a part of my life for such a long time, it is impossible to wipe it from your head ! probably never ! its kind of weird, its almost like a warped grieving process where you miss it, when its not in ones life anymore ! :-/

Still onwards and upwards, really great to see and spend time with my children in Finland. They are also coming to spend time with me at Christmas and see their 1/2 brother ! really looking forward to that. Have a great week everyone and stay gamble free.

Dark Place /

by the way, for the sake of good oder ! i am 13 days clear ! DP

Well done and keep posting I am 15 days in and the urge to gamble is moderate to strong. That said I am so determined to wipe out the debt. It will take 6 years but I have to deal with it day by day. Trying not to wish my life away but sometimes wish it would pass quickly. Hate what I have done so much so stupid ! Anyway good luck in your battle

So glad to see you are in a better head space and keeping up the fight! It is a sort of grieving process, isn't it! Keeping working at it (and work is the key word). Fighting with ya!

DP,

Thanks for your thoughtful post on my diary mate - much appreciated. Great to have you back around, and clearly in a better psychological state than you have been in the past.

Keep clocking up those days... it's often easy to pass off abstinence as insignificant when other things stand in the way (i.e. too busy with work / abroad so don't have the gambling opportunity etc.) but time not gambling is exactly that - time not gambling - however it is achieved. Keep it up

Cheers

D123