Awesome job pinky. Super proud of you. You’ve been level pegging we me through out this and I feel like we’ve been on this journey together. I definitely feel like we both had, and still have, the huge determination to never go back and knowing you are smashing it too makes me smile.
Hope you had a great day.
Stay strong 💪
Yeah I'm doing good thank you, can't tell you what day I'm on as I never actually counted but still GF.. I do have an evening at a Racecoure coming up though, was supposed to see a Band last year that my partner wanted to see but couldn't go (we had tickets too so lost the money for them) they were playing a racecourse so I booked tickets this was before stopping completely, looking forward to an evening away. Unsure on if I will actually gamble or not if I'm honest have spoken to my partner about it with a budget in mind. We will see though looking forward to the hotel and concert more lol
@brownie889 . Stay strong brownie and enjoy the concert. 👍.
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Day 101.
Nothing much to say today other than my sister still has COVID so will go and pick a few bits up for her and drop them off. My son is then coming up later, until Monday morning so we are going to watch the tennis and the football together - 3 finals over one weekend!👌🎾🍓⚽️. COME ON ENGLAND!!!⚽️.
May not get on the chat rooms this eve for “Treat Thursday” as my son will be here (he knows nothing about me being on this site, nor will I tell him). He would be shocked as hell to know about the amount of debit I have got myself into over the years, through gambling. He sees me as his “role model” for all things financial, which I am. When I am not gambling, I am super savvy with money/budgeting👍.
Take care all and stay safe.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady🩷🍎.
Day 102.
Having a bit of a lazy morning here on yet another miserable, rainy July day☔️☔️.
I have just been reading a new post, from a female, who sounds like she is at the end of her tether with her gambling addiction. I really do hope she is able to set up essential blocks to help her not to waste one more penny of her money. This is why I believe coming on here each day or each week, really reminds you of how continuing to gamble on a downward spiral, always thinking that you are going to “win big”, is just an illusion. People like us tend to give all our winnings right back to the wealthy gambling establishments. I can visualise them just sitting there, patiently rubbing their hands together and waiting for us to hand that money (and often a whole lot more) right back over to them! Well guess what guys, you are getting no more off me!!👊💪.
Mens Wimbledon semi-finals day so me and my son will be watching them later. 🍓🎾🍓🎾. My sister said she is feeling better than she has been the last few days too so that’s good🙏.
Today is just about “being/living in the moment” and “going with”. Yes, that will do for me right now👍.
Take care all and just for today……. be “present and happy”🙂.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady🩷🍎.
Day 103.
It’s the Ladies Wimbledon Final today - this year neither player was favourite to win and for both women, this is the first time they have been in the final so that’s good👍. Will watch it later with my son.🎾🍓🎾🍓.
I messaged my sister earlier - she said she is still feeling “ropey” and she has taken another COVID test and this one has come up even more positive than when she took her first one last Tuesday! Poor thing. No wonder she has got this, after all she has been through the last year 💙💔. Her immune system must be right down😢. Thank goodness I am just around the corner, should she need anything👍.
Feeling a bit bored of late and life seems a little monotonous- I am sure that will change when I return to full-time employment on the 19th August! I probably won’t have the time to get bored then!!🤪.
Money remains tight still 3 months on but this is something I knew would be the case. I do have money in my bank account for the essentials to get me through until next payday so for now, that’s the main thing. I have also been able to treat myself a little and others again this month so this always makes me feel good🙂. As I mentioned on my day 100 post, one of my 3 goals I have set, is to have something still in my bank account from this September onwards, each time my salary hits my account. No matter how small this may be, with the intention of gradually building it up each month. One good thing is that I do not have an overdraft facility so anything in my account is mine - small mercies!😁.
Starting to feel a little anxious at the thought of leaving my 20 year old job, currently working part-time and heading into something completely different and full-time hours. I suppose this is only normal for me to feel this way and I am really hoping that once I get started in my new role and complete the training, it will feel like a breeze, compared to what I am doing now🤞🙏. After being off on annual leave all this week, I don’t want to go back but I only have 8 more working days to go in there then I leave for good the following day. Mixed emotions all of a sudden but again, I am just hoping this is only to be expected🥲.
Not sure If I will get out for a walk today……. I laid awake until after 5am this morning (was thinking of my lovely nephew and looking at photos of him and those he has left behind💔💙😢). I was then back awake before 9am so I may just go easy on myself for the remainder of the day and enjoy the tennis final.
Love and strength to you all still fighting the fight on here.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady🩷🍎.
Hope your sister gets better soon, and you don’t catch it just before starting a new job.
I did 16 years in my last job and the last week was a very weird experience. Didn’t feel real. I knew I was giving up a huge part of my life, I had things I would normally do but didn’t need to do them, mates I knew I wouldn’t see much again, responsibilities I wouldn’t have to fulfil. It will be an emotional week for you mate. Enjoy it, embrace it. Next time you do this hopefully you’ll be retiring. Scary thought! My plan is to make this my last job too (maybe promotion at some point, but same location). Big steps ahead, weird times for a bit in new role but if my experience was anything to go by, you’ll have a ball. Toughest part is feeling like the newbie again after so long.
Good luck, and huge congrats on keeping the motivation going in here. Great to have someone to keep an eye on who’s going through the same things as me in the addiction sense.
Stay strong 💪
@p6z38njbqm Thanks Fish 🐟💙. The same goes for you too!
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Day 104.
Lately, I feel like my daily life has been a little boring and monotonous. I gave this some thought yesterday and decided to sign up to the BBC Good Food app. I already have an account with them for free but it comes with ad after ad every time I bring a recipe up 👎. There was an offer on to go ad free for £9.99 for 12 months, instead of £25.00. I decided to take them up on this - works out at around 83p per month!👌. I have always cooked and baked over the years but of late, I have done no baking. I thought as I am leaving my job soon and we are having a team meeting/little leaving lunch in work, I would take in my “last bake”!!
My son has been here since Thursday evening and leaving tomorrow morning for work. He has been waitered on hand and foot. That’s more to do with me as he is so messy so I just think “I am better/quicker doing things myself”! He does always thank me for everything and ask if there is anything he can do though. He is also taking me for brunch today as a little thank you then we will head back to watch the men’s Wimbledon final. We have then got the football final this evening 👌⚽️. Got a feeling Spain will thrash England but let’s see!
Take care all.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
Day 105.
I am going to take a walk into our local town this afternoon with my sister (she is finally starting to pick up from COVID) 👍. Will then head back to hers for cuppa, cake and natter 🙂.
I said earlier in a post that life was a bit monotonous of late so I subscribed to the BBC Good Food guide and have their app on my phone/ipad. Quite ironic that their app icon is “gf”!!! A good reminder to help me stay gamble free 👌. I was scouring some nice bakes to take into work for my leaving lunch in a few weeks time - going to bake a nice cherry, coconut and white chocolate tray bake and also make some chocolate Tiffins 😋. They should both go down a treat!
Now that Wimbledon has finished I was looking for something else to fill the gap on t.v. I saw that BBCiplayer are now showing the Gavin & Stacey series. I used to have the box set of this years ago! I thought it was hilarious and every character in it was so good 👌. I have decided to come to bed a little earlier each night and watch a couple of episodes. Just something light hearted and fun to watch.
Back to work tomorrow after being on annual leave for a total of 11 days. Not going to get down about this. Instead, I am going to go in with a positive attitude, a smile on my face and tell myself, “today is going to be a good day”!😆.
Take care all and stay safe from any gambling harm🙏.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
Day 106.
Returning to work was not too bad all in all but I am still counting down the days before I leave - 7 more working days then I hand back all my I.T equipment on the 8th day!!
Was awake until after 3.30am this morning and then back up for work at 7.30am 😴. I often find a Monday quite a sad day - it was a Monday, just over a year ago that my sister told me the devastating news that her son/my nephew had been suddenly taken into hospital, where it was later discovered he had a mass on his brain, which then quickly lead to his death 4 days later. 💔💙. I think about him every day but in particular, on a Monday. I think this could be the reason why I tend not to sleep well on a Monday eve. 😢.
I am not starting work tomorrow until 11am, wfh and will then head into the office later on. Have got some evening reviews to complete. Will get the train there and back as, one, it is quicker and two, it will cost me nothing as I have my bus/rail pass!😊👌. One good thing about getting older 😆. It will also still be light coming home so that will be good. This could be my final evening session before I leave - hope I haven’t spoken too soon!🤞🙏
Good night and God bless all.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
The countdown is on! Exciting times ahead. Super happy for you.
Its so sad to hear the struggles you've had, and still have over your family. The one thing that strikes me though, is that us gamblers will use sad times to go back to gambling, and you have stayed strong throughout. You've not caved and sought solace in your old safe space. From reading others diaries, and hearing stories at GA, its when people experience emotional events that they can be triggered. You've stuck 2 fingers up at that idea and said 'No'. Love it. Shows how strong and focused you are. That's the attitude we all need to get us through this, and anyone who reads this should see you as a role model for controlling your emotions from a gambling perspective.
Keep up the great work. You keep quite a few of us on track, and I'm sure a few who don't comment too.
Stay strong
@p6z38njbqm Awh thankyou Fish 🐟. Lovely words 💙.
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Day 107.
Had a better night’s sleep last night 👍. Woke up to a bright but breezy summer morning for a change! 😎. Hope the rest of my working day/eve is the same 🙏😆. Nothing much to report today, other than just trying to be “present in the moment” 🙂.
Love and strength to you all. 🙏💪.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
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