Day 152.
Had a nice day just to myself today. Walked into my local town 😎. I have just got my new phone set up so decided to take my old phone to Cash Converters. The lady there said “how much are you thinking”? I said, “how much are you thinking”? She said, “these go for £50 to £60. I said “well do you want to give me £70 then”? She said, “yes, ok”!! The moral of the story is - “you don’t ask, you don’t get”!! 👍. Treated myself to some new make-up and an M&S “Dine in for 2”. I will have it over two nights!😆. Got myself some of my favourite goodies from there too 👌.
My friend who I used to work with, came to mine last night. It was her Birthday so I asked her around and treated her to a Chinese takeaway and a nice Birthday present 🎂. All of which entailed no stressing over how much it would cost me and not having any money to do this! Just normal stuff that we can return to when we no longer gamble 👌. So good for the mind, body and soul.
Spent the early evening sat on my balcony with a glass of wine, in the glorious sunshine before dinner😎🌞. All in all, a nice, relaxing and enjoyable day 👌.
Off to see my sister tomorrow. We are going for a walk along the prom and then back to hers to have a g.o.w on her beautiful new patio! She is making a homemade curry for dinner too! 😋.
Take it easy everyone and look after yourselves.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
Day 153.
Spent the afternoon with my lovely sister - haven’t seen her all week so was nice to catch up 👌. We went for a nice long walk. I then stayed for dinner with her. Ready for the start of another week of passport training tomorrow. Wish me luck!😆.
Good night all and stay safe.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
Day 154.
Another training week for me this week - my last before I get stuck into the job! 🥴. So much to learn, consisting of not 1 but 5 training workbooks!! Not all of it will be directly related to the team I will be joining but it will be helpful in gaining more overall knowledge for the various other teams in my department. I am still really enjoying it though so that’s the main thing 👍.
Still loving the walk to work and back and getting my steps in every day🚶🏻♀️. Not stuck in traffic, roadworks and sat at endless red traffic lights is just a joy!👌. Instead I am listening to the tweeting of the birds as I wander down the quiet roads towards work. What’s not to like about that?😁.
Not feeling so tired as I was when I first started as soon as I returned from my holiday - well I say holiday - I had toothache and an infection for most of it 👎.
Off to the dentist tomorrow to see my own dentist, now he is back from holiday so see what his thoughts are on the matter and just go with. 😕.
Good night all. Enjoy the week ahead as best as you can.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
Sounds like life is treating you well, although the tooth thing is a bit of a pain, literally. Nothing worse than tooth ache on my opinion. It’s just constant, for days on end. I know things like child birth, and being kicked in the you know what’s are sore, but tooth ache is like torture. It just drags you down emotionally and physically. It’s not often you really want a part of your body removed just to ease the pain! Hope it’s not breaking your spirits and your dentist sorted it out today.
Loving the new job updates. Sounds like you’ve hit a home run. Nice walk to work, no aggression, sounds like you’ve got a nice little number there. Gamble free, tick, debt free, in the making, pain free, hopefully, happy life, most definitely.
Stay strong my friend 💪
@p6z38njbqm As always, thanks so much Fish 🐟💙.
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Day 155.
Not the best of days today unfortunately 😔. Felt like I was getting everything wrong in my training and hitting brick walls and having constant mental blocks. Which was then just making me feel ten times worse when my trainer would ask me a question!🙈. Maybe I am being too hard on myself?? I mean, there has been that much we have covered - 4 training workbooks in total so far!! Then there are all the different systems to remember/figure out as well. I got asked to do a live call regarding a passport query. Initially, I was confident and thought “I have got this”! Then, when doing the dummy call with my trainer, I just started forgetting it and just clamming up 🙈. The phone call then became such an ordeal that I was just making it worse and worse. When I finally did get round to calling the customer, there was no answer!! My trainer, who is so lovely just said to me “the amount of people who when attempting their first call acted just the way you did”. It didn’t really do anything for my confidence at the time but now later on, reflecting on it, I need to just brush myself down and get back in there tomorrow and go again. After all, it’s not the end of the world!
Without going into detail and boring everyone with my tooth/teeth situation, my visit to the dentist did not go well. I have to have implants, which could cost up to 5k!!🙈. I have already spent 1k on consultations, restorative work, follow up’s and emergency appointments! I came home and just felt like it was all totally soul destroying 😭. I just thought “Every time I try to better myself financially (just getting a full-time job), something else turns up to cause me anxiety” 😔.
I am now in bed and it is much later on. My thoughts are as follows:
- Tomorrow is a new day
- No one has died
- There is nothing worse than losing a child (as in my sister’s case last year)
- I will return to training tomorrow with a positive mindset and learn from my mistakes today
- I will consider options re my teeth in a few months time.
That’s it folks. When things get tough and then even tougher, just tackle life day at a time and if nothing else, just B-R-E-A-T-H-E. By the way, I couldn’t think of anything worse than trying to gamble and chance my luck at winning money to pay towards my teeth. We all know where that will end up - in even more debt!!👎. No thank you 👊💪.
Good night. God bless all.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
Day 156.
Will keep this post short this eve as I am shattered and my eyes have been fixed to a computer screen for most of the day!😵💫. Attended a training event this morning on BHD - bullying, harassment and discrimination in the workplace, in our magnificent ballroom - a far cry from doing a workshop in the kitchen of the building I was in at my previous job! Made five real calls today so starting to feel more confident about that, even though there is still lots to take in/remember but as my little 9 year old great niece recently told me, “Practice makes progress”!!🩷👌. I even made a call to a customer in Philadelphia !🇺🇸. It certainly paid off going in with a different mindset today that’s for sure. More of the same tomorrow.
My bed is calling so I will bid you all a good night and God bless.
“April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
Practice makes perfect mate. Will be second nature before you know it. Getting the international call under the belt is a big tick!
Have a good sleep. Keep fighting the good fight.
Stay strong 💪
Day 157.
Another mind boggling day today on training 🥴. Did more calls/email queries. Can’t decide if I am being too hard on myself, or indeed I am just thick as!🥴. There just seems so much to remember or rather, I am remembering what I have learned but the queries have been so diverse that I am having trouble knowing exactly where to go with them?? Today for example, I had to call a guy who was wanting to complete 3 applications for his triplets, however, they were all in Uganda whilst he was in Britain and, were born to a surrogate! I just looked at the email and thought, “where on earth do I start with this one”? I did feel somewhat relieved however, to find my trainer even having to look something up on this. After receiving support from him and finally getting my script together in my head, there was no answer when I called him!
More of the same tomorrow. 🥴. It is my last day of training before I go onto my department on Monday. I am really hoping that things will settle more there as I will just be focusing on the stuff that I will mostly be dealing with 🤞🙏. Tomorrow we go again!
Take care all and remember, when things feel tough for whatever reason, just take a step back and press the “reset” button and just B R E A T H!👍.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
Day 159.
Currently at my sister’s holiday home in the Lake District. It is beautiful, with the river Kent running alongside it 👌. Unfortunately, I started to develop a tickley cough in work yesterday morning and now have a full blown head cold. That or COVID!🙈🤧🤒. I think I am a bit run down after having a tooth infection for three weeks and then just completing an intense 3 week’s worth of training in my new job 🥴. I will be hitting the advanced multivitamins tomorrow when I return home and, completing a Covid test!!
Good night all. 😴😴
“April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
159 days is amazing, Pink.
Sorry to hear you're feeling unwell at the moment though. Hopefully you feel much better soon and can fully enjoy your time away. x
You always seem to be somewhere nice but then struck down with illness of some kind! Maybe one day you’ll get a break and be healthy throughout 😂. Nice to hear you are enjoying life though. So good to see the power that quitting gambling can give us.
Best of luck with the job (and illness).
Stay strong 💪
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